Xoxo Mello

2010-08-14T11:53:00.017+08:00

{ Alohaaaaa, }

It's been so long! Totally neglected , :x alright . A full string of events happening and had happened ! Shall let pictures do the talking (:

Global Education Programme (GEP) on 28 July 2010.

held in Simei Ite where we had t wear traditional costume and being the 'chosen one' for the welcome party, i am a korean for a few hours. It felt like I ate a bottle of butterflies. :/

Raffles Hospital, Presentation on 27th July 2010.

Then we had our presentation to Raffles Hospital, also another nervous shitting experience. Another bottle of butterfly down.

Went back t school after that, t finish up with the never finishing pile of work we had. :/ Stayed till really late, hahaha I like. The moon was low and there were pretty clouds. I like I like <:

DaVinci at Tampines ITE on 29th July 2010.

Th design students from Bishan came over, flooded w people. :/ Stopped doing my Max&Cad after got distracted many many times. ^^ Saw many many people ♥. Lijun came (in wheelchair) tooooo, get well soon girl !

After everyone left and the school became quiet again, we prepared t leave for our last and final Cip work just around the school! Talked to some resident in the Home for the Aged(?), had fun and got t know some dirty secrets. Hahaha. Quite interesting trip down.

YOG Opening Ceremony Preview on 3oth July 2010.

Felt it was a total waste of time, kept being lead t dead ends and kept getting lost even tho there were so many YOG officer. No firework, No whoa point. Total waste of time. ):

Went over to Chimeng's 17th birthday party at sembawang park. Stay over till 6am, hehe he was freaking drunk. (Y), okay I take it as everyone was too drunk, I think I blabber some stuff out too uh? hahaha. Went home at about 6+, i was so hungry ):

1st August 2010, HongKongCafe.

Met chris for some bites at Favourite slack place, HongkongCafe. :D Had TauHuey :D Yay.

6th August 2010, National Day &18th birthday celebration.

National Day Dress Up thing, can you spot my little friend over there? :D Hehehe, oh and very nicely dress up people! Like cosplay ! Hahaha I like.

You are my sunshine man, my face like red and his face like white. In theme somemore! <:

Cake ChanCherie and clique surprised me with. Hehe Love you people deep deep, it was like the whole school celebrating w me. Thank God I wasn't that emotional. <:

Weibin the 'design student' help me paint Singapore flag ! Hehe like powerful.But sadly I removed it after a few hours cause it kinda get ruin :x After waiting for like forever, Liangkun drew some bloody pretty flowers for me. I likeeee.

Was late in meeting buddy, hahaha kept delaying your 'master plan' uh? From 4pm to 5pm to almost 6pm :x Aye had Manhattan Fish Market for dinner, like nice only ah their Platter <: Secondary classmates surprise me w damn nice chocolate cake, was feeling sky high cause I've got very delicious food around me . (Y).

9th August 2010, National Day with Valerie and clique.

Met dearest♥. ^^
Caught Inception with Valerie and clique, awesome show if you understand it. Had pepper lunch! Another craving. <:

Lijun's birthday BBQ & Stayover on 14th August 2010.

Had fun bbq-ing under the rain w many many umbrella, hahaha everyone left and a few of us decided t stayover, hehe webcam-ed with Vale even tho we were right beside each other. Then we got hungry, ordered Macdonald, some rich kid treat ley. ^^ Had Kbox in her room while everyone was sleeping, damn high. Hahaha. Okay woke up and prepared t leave, met sister for Macdonald , yes again. This time I had my Cinnamon Melt. (Y). Home and out again, met chris for movie and jurong point. I always thought Jurong point was at Jurong. :/

Omg, I think this is it. The longest and picture-filled post I ever had ! :D Hehehe, well my holiday was kinda pack w school projects, YOG duties. Too over worked that I somehow screw things up ): Sigh, oh well. I hope this post proves that this lil space over here is still alive and I'm also alive.

xoxomello,
never regret something that made you smile ♥

2010-07-02T19:59:00.002+08:00

{ Changed. }

Finally Friday <: School's gna reopen in 2days time.
I swear I really prepared t bake today! I browse webs for awesome recipe but when I woke up it rain ( I still intended t bake! ) then I got lazy and the cold weather is not letting th butter chill t room temperature. D: So it was plain lazing day for me, didn't want t go out cause I'm trying t not spend what I have and th rain is also spoiling it all :/ Tried spending th day fruitfully by watching all th movies I rented, ^^ I knew I was gna rot so I rented those shows. There's friendly tmr and Idk if I should turn in real early after I've uploaded ALL (yes all.) of the photos which are long due. (:
Yesterday's training was awesome, I like I like . Partially because it's been so long since we had those kinda training, hopefully tmr's friendly is gna be fun. :D

P.S, Sorry for not updating th links. Shall update them when my eyes don't feel tired fixing th codes ah ! <:

xoxomello,
cause something just won't work out,
no matter how much you try.

2010-06-28T01:13:00.002+08:00

{ Familiar? }

):
i get dishearten very easy these few day.
I'm falling sick too.
Dang, why like this ?

(:
I finally see th real world,
th real cruel world that I've been living in for my life.
What's good and what's bad,
what's true and what's not.

:/
There are always mixed feelings,
there's always a limit for everything.
It always lie in you,
if you want t cross it or not.

xoxo,
I made friends with who I thought was you.
I admire who I thought who was in you.
I love who I thought I knew.

2010-06-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh not that I'm mia-ing but I just send my laptop for repair :( it's really so troublesome t get updates like this but I'm really so bored. :( too much tv and I don't want t go out with my disfigured leg. It's like an extra week before I really mia ! I'm gna go play audition with my sister now (: I even painted my nails weird colour then remove them and paint them again. This shows how bored i'm right. :D sighhhhhh.

Xoxo!
Get well soon!
Now I know how important you are! (legs):x

2010-06-02T23:29:00.002+08:00

{ Bloody Valentine. }

Sigh, I guess June is really a bad bad month for me ): 1st I fell down and omg disfigured. Then 2nd my laptop died on me, gg.com.sg ! Tmr's presentation, hopefully nothing goes wrong tmr. Don't tell me someone sat on my boards or my things are missing or what shit. I will go crazy. :/ I'm gna go sleep now, my wounds are bloody fresh. I managed t get out of th shower alive ;D hahaha. Sigh, idk how tmr ! Shall go write my will out. :x

xoxomello,
what if you had a choice?

2010-06-01T23:49:00.003+08:00

{ I fell . }
this time, I fell harder then before.

Read: Not for the weak at heart. <:

For th first and last time, I swear I will take care of myself and watch where I'm heading! D: I fell really terribly, now I'm like so handicapped. Upper body pain from injection, now lower body also handicap. There's additional alteration time given tmr, how t rush here rush there ? Sigh, there's th last paper tmr. How t take my time walk t school? Everyone thinks that I drew my injuries on myself ): Cause my blood freaking red. Hahaha, after I fell. I took uncle's car over t causeway t meet my brother. Ate and shopped around before getting a ride home from uncle again, lesson learn: No free lunch in this world. ): Everyone notice this bright red patch of blood on my knee, I still can shop till quite shiok :/ I've decided t pamper myself damn much this week. I don't care, the cab fares or the shopping spree {: Since I've suffered now, and will be suffering for another 14days in June. Why not pamper myself more before I leave? <: Gah, I needa study my theory. Nah, one of th gross photo Brother help me take. Hahahahaha.

xoxomello,
life is cruel, you don't get to choose the life you want.
it's better to just love who you are. {:

2010-05-24T23:12:00.003+08:00

{ Just to tell you. }

I'm still doing fine w/o you.

Sigh, been pretty busy these few days. Projects, due dates, touching up, submission. >: Been neglecting alot, been doing things that isn't right. Been singing late into the night, been giving empty promises. Been sucha ass. Ahh, so suck. ): But just t let you know, I'm still doing fine. (: Still eating good food, still with awesome friends. Just ~~less happiness~~ and less exercise(!). Blah, been sleeping real late. Idk why, just mere stoning and youtub-ing. :E Life's so dull, I'm gna get colour pencils soon! I hope. If you know what I mean. Haaaaaaahah.

xoxomello,
I am what I feel,
and tonight I don't feel that much.

2010-05-19T22:46:00.002+08:00

{ In the night sky. }

Alrightttt, exam period. ): Stressed, well three down one to go BEFORE the final theories and presentation :/ Theory Theory Theory. And I'm still blogging now, because I'm tired and nothing is going in and I'm feeling pekchek cause I can't seems t find my stuff now. Feeling sick, must be the rain I got caught in a few times already. Heh, okay like enjoy life. I came home showered and slept, in fact overslept. Only woke up at 7pm, didn't feel like studying anymore ): It's 1am now, so fed up w the overseas trip. If everything is in a rush and you can't handle it then you either push it back or w.c.s just cancel it ! :/ Sigh. I wna turn in now, i haven't studied everything. I'm tired. Goodnights. {:

xoxomello,
best thing yet .

2010-05-13T13:50:00.002+08:00

{ If it's meant to be (: }

hoho, one down many more t go. Ahhhhh, many many many due dates :/ Driving me crazy, am not myself lately.. ): Sorry for th very wordy post these few day, gah really tired. Guess it's like a curse or what, I have t live with it <:

xoxomello,
I suppose things were meant t be. (:

2010-05-11T00:16:00.002+08:00

{ Just another passing cloud. }

Ah, today's training was very painful. I keep having pulls here and there till finally I think I pulled my thigh muscle ): Sigh. I was still thinking of joining th 42km run, and I think I will still be. Feeling very pms now, I still don't understand. I'm gna go bed now, and hopefully tmr i'll wake up in time for Business Design. D: This isn't working out for me . Shouldn't have got used t it, dang.

xoxomello,
cause you still won't learn from your lesson.
活该你有这样的下场。
Blame it on the misery life you have there girl.

2010-05-09T23:25:00.003+08:00

{ Stop. }

Be very jealousssss, melmakescupcake success ! <: Yay. Everyone says it's nice tho it's abit sweet but I swear I already took less sugar and stuff :/ Woohoo, made me day so easily. {: Well, the cupcake with the heart♥ there belongs to mommy. Happy Mother's Day♥! I did my nails too, super blingbling. I wanted t request for some blingbling but nah, later drop out ugly already. So now with my power nails, I'm sure I won't fall asleep in class ! {: Hehe. Alright, today was awesome. I baked, I did my work and I'm still not tired ): Movie marathon again I guess. Sigh, and I realised I'm back t square one. Nothing is gna get me back up I guess. Sigh. Nevermind, I'm happy now.. I guess. {:

Mel makes cupcakes ♥ success {:
I think this will be and shall be th only way I can stay happy <:

xoxomello,
once bitten twice shy.
I guess this is th final call. ♥

2010-05-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

:/

To be here, while you're there.

2010-05-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

Someone influence me on this thing, I've been on this thing for so long already! Cannot get enough of this, rahr. Damn cute can, if someone ask you t open this web and confesses here. :/ ♥. This is for you ChanCherie. {: Hehe, so awwww right ! Gah, it's 11pm now. Today is a very late day, we had lunch at dinner time and had dinner and supper time. :/ I slept alot today, was suppose t meet bf(!) for bbq at th new park but I slept and didn't wake up till like 9? They were already packing up when I called him, tsk sorry! Next time mel 'date' you out okay ! :D Hehe, Idk how am I gna sleep today. I slept so much, (just like some pig(!) ) I think I might spend my night watching my movies ! Borrow 5movies again! I'm liking this weekend's life <: Hehe. Ytd was awesome too :D Ahhhhh, okay shall not get hyped up. Shall try t sleep after one movie, :D

xoxomello,
I guess cupid was blindfolded when
he was shooting his love arrows.

2010-04-29T23:04:00.004+08:00

{ A.W.E.S.O.M.E :D }

{ you have t survive the storm to see the rainbow. }

Gee, awesome or what. I was late yet I was quite happy I came at that time <: I saw happy people, I saw happy people and I'm really glad I'm late today. Awesome like really! School's great, got back our results. Very pleased ! Hehe, burn midnight oil efforts paid off ! <: I got top, tho w sucky results but yay. :D Okay, I'm updating not because there's an update for my dull life. I'm updating cause it's an awesome day and i'm feeling gooooood. <: A day like this doesn't come everyday okay! I'm looking at people play Wii from my window now, the moon's great too. <: Gee, I (hearts) big round bright moon. Random. Kaybyethanks!

xoxomello,
cause it's all for you baby. <:

2010-04-27T20:44:00.003+08:00

{ Weetweet. }

Just stupidly, <: Ah my number 4th.

Is. Feeling. Very. Sensitive. ):
I can't stop thinking too much !
I'm just going t stone infront of the television. >:

xoxomello,
cause it's just you and me.
ah, stupid.

2010-04-23T12:38:00.005+08:00

{ Awesome <: }

Rained the whole afternoon, I woke up at a very weird timing. I had this very weird dream too, unable t really remember what was in it but it was very real, as if I really felt everything. Sigh, watched 2 movies today. The ugly truth and The House Bunny, well I think my rainy afternoon was just another afternoon. It's dad's birthday today so we are gna have awesome food later <: Mm, totally feel so sucky today. Idk why, aish. Hopefully good food cheer me up :D Ohohohhhh, wanted t bake today but dang the thunder and lightning spoils it all. I just laid on the sofa and I think I dozed off a couple of time, haha. Itchy hand, feel like baking those yummy cupcake. Tsk, but I need t get the ingredient. B say he need t do his 'school work' so is unable t go with me ): Rahr, nevermind. Shall continue with the lazing till dad's hungry :D

xoxomello,
all I ever wanted ,
was an in-between to escape this desperate scene.

2010-04-22T00:11:00.003+08:00

{ Overboard. }

I'll learn to count my blessing, :D

People are complaining about this empty space ! >: Well, term holiday ended and it's already term 2. Sigh, like how they say it in term1. Term 2 is going to be extra pack and even more hectic then term 1. There is sure late night stayover or even needing t burn midnight oil for continuous day :/ So if I'm able to rest then I shall rest more <: Sadly, I am not doing what I'm suppose to do. You see me as if I'm so free, but I'm not. I've got assignments up t my neck >: I'm seen online, on facebook and even stoning :/ Farid and some others managed t see me go all crazy and high when I'm super bored and feeling very restless ! Hahaha, that was seriously the joke of the day :x gah, I'm feeeling very nonsense now. Idk what t do tmr, alah I know there's a pop quiz tmr. I know I needa hand in many many things >: I know I know but I'm not doing anything . Yay for me ! Sigh, it's 1am again. I should be closing my windows already, I know I'll only be able t hit the sack at only 2+ >: Hehe^^ warm milk save the day, i like. Nonsense also make the stress go away, :D
I shall not bomb this place w my nonsense and go t bed now <: hehe.

Annyeong!
xoxomello,
cause you might be my lifesaver.

2010-04-02T01:52:00.003+08:00

{ Again & Again. }

Happy April's Fool Dayyyyy!

Aye, to begin this post. I was not really tricked at all till about a few minutes ago. ): I really believed cannnn, peuuuu. Good attempt, great effort. Like no loopholes till I seriously thought of it . Haha, oh well I guess this is it . My april fool ended with such a epic moment. Ohkay, tday went t get my markers and got paid. Hurhur, was a very lazy day. And now I know why I'm feeling this way. It kinda hit me ): Rahr, okee gna go sleep now. 2.11am already. Tmr's sentosa day ! Hope it doesn't rain, hope th weather's gna be nice. Haha. Oh did I mention? I got a new pet, name peggy. I think she's a Pomeranian, very pretty and furry but I prefer my girl okeay <: So easy jealous, gee. Oh, on the 31st. I baked cupcakes ! Pretty coloured cupcakes, but I was so caught up with WGM that half of them turned bad. :/

{ Mixture Green Red and orange <:, mini cupcakes in th oven! }

Okee, tired. It's 2.4oam now. I haven't pack for tmr, sure die. :/ Rawr. okay nights !

xoxomello,
cause if only I could live in a fairytale.

2010-03-31T00:10:00.002+08:00

{ I thought. }

I thought my eyes were playing tricks on meeee :/ but they were not ! Gee, omg i don't know what t do. Fate decided that I should not beep someone but in the end I did <: hehe. Nevermindddd, oh yeh Justin Bieber's new album's out already! I can't seem to find a source , booooo. Snsd new song out too, Run devil run. I likeeee, I heard kesha also made a demo of it. Idk but sound nice, gosh. My headache's really keeeeeeling ): I shall turn in now, tmr will be a better day <:

xoxomello,
sometime you've got nobody to blame
other then you yourself.

2010-03-27T02:15:00.004+08:00

{ Oh!. }

The sky shall represents endless love,
the rain represents kisses and
th sunshine represents warm hugs.

Okee just a quick post here, gee been doing my lifeskill work till now. 2.16am, th last time I looked at the clock was 11pm! >: Lost of sleep, idk what t do tmr too! Jees, ohoh! Did I mention I painted my nails with another layer of blingbling! Idk if I should get the 3D art and bling my nails or should I just don't bother th already cui nails! Hehe, went t school for more rendering today. Stupid BigW keep coming to kaypoh and making me super worried cause he told me my furnitures won't work out ! ): I got super dishearten at one point .. but my hack care attitude came back. :B Idk if it's good or bad. And! Idk if I should change my nails colour despite having them only for 2days ! <: <: <: I'm spending again, tmr shall go eat good food w B if he's free :D
Okay shall go sleep now, my visions are blurring ): Omeegod.
Wan An. 굿나잇 !

xoxomello,
the chapters done,
but the story goes on.

2010-03-23T20:48:00.002+08:00

{ Ultimate. }

Okay today's exercise program did not fail ! (Y)(Y). Was thinking if I should head down t Toapayoh with th girls for their netball match and also get my ingredients at th same time. Sadly, I didn't go with them which means I didn't manage t get my ingredients which means baking fail today :/ I don't really want to bake today, was feeling really errrrr so I didn't bake! Sigh, nevermind some other days shall bake EGGTARTS♥ Aye, exercise with B tday (: Kept running and had fun with the exercise machines downstairs :x haha. Geez, now i'm tired yet I just started painting my nails :/ Ahyo. Got no time t go t my pedi ): Tmr shall go get my ingredients and then I shall complete my rendering and I shall sleep early <: Hehe, as if ah ! Sigh, okay goodnight !
Weather's really very horrible, drink more water and takecare !

xoxomello,
at one point I said serve you right,
yet at another point,
I wish you're doing well. :/
this is so heartbreaking. ):

2010-03-23T01:53:00.002+08:00

{ I swear. (?) }

My desktop, it's blur-ed on purpose.

I swear I can go crazy over love found loveeeee. Hahaha, been watching th show for th past few hours. Totally mesmerized, gee. Tears of joy and tears of sadness , I got no words to describe. And I doubt anyone knows th show I'm watching. Took me such a long time t get th title of th show and even longer time for me t find th movie :/ Gah, it's 2am now. I don't feel tired cause I slept for freaking 13hours. :E Like a pig, yeh thanks. 7am exercise failed, baking failed, 8pm exercise failed too. At least I managed t watch my show <: Hehe. Okey, tmr school. Sigh, i dont even know what t bring. Shall see my mood tmr, I mean later. Haha, I can't wait to be a deaf, mute and blind for a day, if you know what I mean.

xoxomello,
it's not always about you.
and no,
you don't know what it's like.

2010-03-21T01:22:00.002+08:00

{ screw th people who screw you life. }

words words words, caution.

Tired, my eyes were like O.O when I woke up tday. ):
So today was likeeee . Wake up , raining, went work, diet, end work, eat , home and sleeping soon. gee, I feel so tired of everything. Sometimes being alone really gives me time t think hard and think real. :/ Been trying to hide from the fact, been trying to tell myself it all isn't true. Yet one single night and everything bit of unhappiness was laid right infront of me. Geez, i don't care who said what or who screwed who. I just know that we were all not being true right from the start.

Okeeeee on a happier note, I finally cleared th big rock on my heart. :D I confessed, I told the truth, I spoke my heart out and finally I shopped my bank out. :/ Mm, kay the last one is not totally true .. I think I'm falling sick already. The weather's such an ass, and my body clock is definitely not tuned. Rahr, pardon for th bad temper. Seems like the weather's controlling my temper too. ): Sales hasn't improved, I don't wish to see history repeat again. Seems like I'm not someone who can prevent things from happening uh. ): Really tired , guess I'm gna turn in with a heavy heart again.

xoxomello,
I missed what used to be,
I missed who you used to be,
I missed whom we used to be,
I just missed who used to happen. :/

2010-03-18T16:29:00.002+08:00

{ I wish our heart could beat together as one.}

Baby, we're missing out on paradise.

Gee, been staying in school till late late late these few days :/ Haven't really completed what should have been done. Okee, I'm multi multi-tasking you know, I have facebook on I'm blogging, I'm doing my Autocad♥ I'm doing my renderings and lastly I'm also looking for songs :D Hahaha, super multi- tasking. Well, I need a break from all th work what. Haha, okeeeeee th rain's making me sleeepy manz. I'm hungry ): KFC coupons right in right of me, super tempting yo. :/ Ohwell, i think i'm going t go home soon .

okay it's 6.12pm now, haha. Finish playing w the rendering markers that's making us all high. Very soon we'll all suffer from brain damage I tell you, haha but super fun. Tho it stinks but it's fun <: I dont wna die so young uh!

xoxomello,
cause you can't make up your mind,
well boy just trust your heart.

2010-03-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

{ WahkaoEh. ): }

(Even if th sky falls down,)

Sometimes I think that my dad is crazy, super no mood :/ Plus I think I just made things worst for someone. Nobody's bringing my mood up, i need my happy pills (which turn out t be expired (if you know what I mean) ). Dang, it's 11.21pm now, I'm gna irritate my dad by going t sleep now so he have noone t nag at (unless he's willingly t nag at my dog. ) Before I flare up, rahr. Nights.

xoxomello,
sometimes you just needa make th right choice,
and stick with it.

2010-03-14T22:05:00.004+08:00

{ Over or just beginning ? }

Sunday was so wasted, really so restless tday that I kept going t sleep without thinking if there's anything t do. :/ I woke up and realised I actually wrote a note for sunday. It's my pathetic -to do- list I wrote on saturday. ): Now I'm feeling very restless again so I guess I'm gna turn in now @ 1013pm. ): >: ):

Oh, if anyone's reading. Kindly tell me where t get this pair of shoe. Loveyouttm.

xoxomello,
cause idk why it has been kind of like a phobia.

2010-03-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

People change.

I know it's true that people change after a certain time, it's when people show they're true colours, or maybe you can just say their fox tail. Idk why people assume that it's others who are changing and not themselves who are changing? Never do they thought about who's th one who made them change? :/ Sigh, sometimes I wonder if I'm really thinking too much.

okay enough of ranting, tday was bloody tired manz. Stamina drop like shitz, feeling very lazy and tired so easily ): Hurhur, woke up 3 times in th morning. 6am, 7am and lastly 8am. Wanted t go school t do my drawings but decided not to cause I was lazy and I got so many excuses . :/ Continue sleeping till about 10+, showered pack back and left house at 11+. Dragon boating was drop dead tiring. Rowed for about 2hours I guess, didn't know I got burnt till I got home :/ Mummy said how come I got so red, just like uncle's baby's first month egg. >: Rawr, idk where i placed my aloe vera big bottle of gel >: Die. After dragon boat, it drizzled before we left. Bused t Suntec and had JustNoodles, yummy. Damn full please , left w melt for basketball session w 方小姐 and company. Damn tired, went there and got lazy. I dont like th ring, seems like it doesn't like me either. I tried so hard t shoot but fail fail failed. >: Home sweet home after that, my shoulders are starting t ache now :/ Sigh. Going t sleep now, hurhur.

xoxomello,
is it me thinking too much
or
it's just plain you playing tricks.

2010-03-07T20:46:00.005+08:00

{ Over th moon , }

I'll start th countdown myself,
hopefully you'll be able t end it with me :D

Aching from yesterday's basketball session.
Had chinese cuisine for brunch. Service sucks, >:
Alteration of clothes done.
Shopped at popular, (y) i like.
home, out again for 'project'.
home, out again for late late dinner.
home, gna go sleep :/

Ps: Snowy look so adorable w her new clothes <: Hahahaha. Okay tmr class is at 8am, hopefully I'll reach on time :D Hehe, gna go sleep now. xoxomello, let's not waste another day, it's good t see you again.

2010-03-06T23:52:00.003+08:00

{ Heart-throb Hawtie :D }

All along I was looking for something that never existed. :/

Ouhhhhh, tday was so awesome ! Was sleeping my ass off for striaght 12hours, I slept at 1am th day before and I woke up at 1pm tday. <: Like shiokness, I had my perspective drawings right infront of me but I didn't bother t draw after switching on th tv :D Hahaha, oh well teevee-ed and then ms.fang called me at 4pm, apparently she just woke up :/ Discussed on th place of meeting and etc but in th end I was stuck w American Idol, was waiting for Andrew Garcia to be on but he was th last one :/ Waited till 6pm and finally left, was suppose t meet them at 5.3o! :x oh well, finally reached and met up w juster <: hehe, didn't knew that they called they guyfriends too :/ didn't cut my nails ! And hurt so badly when I wna shoot ): All thanks t Calvin ! Asked him out and asked him t bring nail-clipper, yay. Th guys were saying that I can't shoot :/ And now I proof them wrong <: hehe. Oh played from 6pm to 1opm, th lights were out and th court had t be locked up ): Left for home while they went t eat :D Totally awesome, it's been a long time since I played till like this, I like. MsFang was hoping we could do this every weekend, but I needa work :/ Maybe on days when I dont have work ! <: hahaha, ok very hyped now, cause i know i know you dont know ! :D :D :D Okay , I'm tired and hungry. I wna sleep, tmr shall be xiaolongbao day with b ! <: Yay.

xoxomello,
he's running through my mind all day <:
just like a song stuck on replay.

2010-03-02T11:10:00.001+08:00

Hi :D

2010-03-01T13:07:00.003+08:00

{ Would you mind? }

Okay, th screen in school's really big thus making me don't feel like blogging cause th page is like :

Bloody empty, i don't like ! Oh well, I'm still alive like everyone else <: Hehe. Sad thing is tsunami hit some part of earth already. :/ Sigh, boss told me some facts about th past beliefs from the tsunami/earthquakes at somewhere in Indo. Idk weather t believe anot, but really send chills down my spine. Brr, well been trying t do whatever I can to save myself from th lildevil that's making me real lazy. Didn't go t school for threedays(!) last week and this week confirm cannot very late+ skip school + fall sicker + get lazier + .. or whatever that prevents me from coming t school. No more excuses ok ! :D I have my resolutions in desktop of my laptop. Hopefully, I'm motivated t follow all of them ! :D But but but, I'm starting t find myself thinking twice about being in this course ): Sigh, why how what. Okay, on a happier note. I'm gna have dinner w b! Like so long we didn't eat together outside already :E Shingz, he's having toothache and wants t opt for a easier t chew meal. Neverminddd, sudden urge t just shout __________. have fun guessing, th white screen is blinding me :/

xoxo, cause you promised
you'll keep your promises,
yeh, empty promises i guess ;D

2010-02-28T00:37:00.003+08:00

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO BLOG.

Cause you taught me how t smile and forget bout it .

Ok, I heard news( again ) that Tsunami is back :/ Sigh! This time it's wandering about in the pacific ocean, it's gna hit japan or idk where very soon. Dang, I just made a do to list in my mobile and now we're all gna die ! >: I made a private post on all my confession be it good or bad ;/ I feel better but at th same time worst ! ): Sigh, someone told me t live life t the fullest before it end :D Suddenly I have flash back of times I really did things which I really shouldn't have done. I'm feeling so suck up now cause I really don't like th feeling of knowing that there might not be tmr. >: I dont want disaster t strike !
Please pray, please be safe .
xoxo.

2010-02-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

Hehe, can some kind hearted soul tell me when's th next shopping flea gna be? I really need t pamper myself :/ I wna do my nails, I wna go for treatment, I want ! >: but I can't ! Booyah, should I even be on cloud nine? :?

xoxomello,
I dont wna walk this earth,
if I needa go on solo. :D

2010-02-25T16:09:00.005+08:00

{ You would not believe , }

Did you?

I'm not lazy, it's just that I dont wna scare away my readers with my wordy post, and I mean really wordy. So I'm going t do it quick and neat <:

♥ Feb Birthday celebration for Sister(11th), brother's on the 14th and there was no cake available for him cause th shops were closed for chinese new year :/

♥ No Chinese New Year mood this year, didn't win must, didn't really lose. Fair I guess. Met up w vale&thye on the 2nd day of cny for a walk in town, there's a theme park at cityhall! <: <: <: Had 3sakae side dishes and off we went to YukiYaki!

Did I mention that I babysit one of the kids at Mrs Chee's place? For a short period of time but omg it was so wonderful ! <:

Cute!, fat!, chubby!, not mine!!.

♥ This should come before th previous one but I LOST MY STUDENT PASS BEFORE CNY. Dangs, lucky I didn't top it up as th machine was spoil (Y).

♥ Gathering at Teckhow's new house for steamboat/cny greetings! Didn't even know he shifted till that day, well caused sha and cj t wait for me cause I was stuck w th tv ! Eh Hi, my sweetheart was playing! <: Drink drank and not drunk, so shiok ttm. Home at 1am, thanks t teckhow's brother (who I didn't knew of.) ♥ Down w minor food poisoning this week >: Must be th steamboatS I had during cny. ): Skipped school for two days straight, omg I'm so lagging behind.

Sticky's DIY candy, >: xoxo.

♥ Back to school tday, I'm filled with deadlines, projects and more deadline! >:

♥ I'm finding this so fun, short and in point form but I'm still forgetting some stuff! ><

Okay I think I'm done w posting, don't really have a vivid memory of th past few weeks :/ Weather has been so humid and so suck. ): And after th last sentense, I bet that th post which I wanted t make neat and not so wordy is wordy already D: Booyah, at least I tried ! This is for all the drafts that I saved okay! <:

xoxomello,
I would give all that I have
just for one last glance. :/

2010-02-07T00:43:00.001+08:00

{ Lights Out. }

Rawr. Outing tday, didn't buy anything except for facial stuff from Etude House (?). >: Then bought my surprise gifts, heh. Maybe that was th only thing that made me happy, ohoh. I like♥ being at singapore river, th lights th screams th scenery. <: Aye, met w clique♥ tday at orchard. They confused me with their directions can. Walk walked and more walking, i didn't find my dresses >: Went t find boss, chit chat. So miss them please, watch th lion dance there, like awesome. Went back t meet th remaining clique at mos, i didn't eat >: Walked t dhoby ghaut, see talk hunt. Went Etude House again, bought what we couldn't find at th other Etude House. Haha, parted w jo and went Clark Quay. I♥hearts there, as I mention above. {: Went home w juster, she accompanied me for my dinner. (y), talked and talked. Thanks for listening ah♥, then went home. She didn't tell me that her house there got crazymanchoppinguprandompeople ! Tsk, so late already manz. Okay, but she's alright cause I spoke t her online already <: Haha. Okay, I'm tired. Feeling damn restless tho >: Rawr.

xoxomel,
even tho you lost,
at least you know
you didn't give up without a fight.

2010-02-05T19:54:00.003+08:00

{ I dont wna be your friend, }

You know. (:

Alrightz.
School was great, had interview w Mr Kerk. :D
Brunch at kfc <:
Home after that.

Shiok part was, it rain right after I reached home. I switched on th air con and fell into deep slumber <: (Y). Then woke up at 6pm, yay. Called Chris and had a lil bite at home before meeting her. <: Had breeks, iheart♥hotchocolate. Ate ate ate, been stuffing myself w many food ever since ________. Rawr, my back's aching and I needa get some sleep now. I dont feel well but it's so awesome t be crapping t some crapper <: ♥ I'm gna go offline now, i really hate having a runny nose >:

xoxomel,
cause as long as I believe {:

2010-02-04T18:42:00.004+08:00

(This says it all. :/ )

Beepbeep, guess I'm doing alright. {: No worries, ain't gna stay in for so long, maybe I'm getting over whatever that brings me down even faster then expected. <: (y). Well, tday is also th day where my cousin get enlisted ! Didn't managed t meet up w them for dinner/supper but met b for hongkongcafe, was feeling really sucky about missing my chance and had hth talk w him. Well, ate and took peektures and talk so much. <:

Okay, was not late for school tday. Just on th dot okayz, this week I came home early, didn't spend on things I dont need and I didn't cab ! {: Yay. Braided part of my hair tday, ilike. But others don't like >: Maybe leaving on a few days, washing my hard seems so *ouch* painful >: Nevermind, I like. Training was canceled tday :/ Wanted t actually play my heart out but ... nevermind. Shall wait for monday! (: Thank god it's friday tmr, (y). I keep forgetting what event I have this weekend, like stm again. Tsk, maybe when I miss th appointed time then someone call then I remember :/ See how , if not I'm gna come home and sleep. Really needa catch up on my sleep <: I dont want eye bag, I dont want sleepless nights, I dont want t think so much too! :/

xoxomel,
we're gna try.
even if I fail,
at least I'm glad I tried <:
Positivity.

2010-02-03T23:05:00.008+08:00

{ I'm gna try. (: }

(Still gna be, still will be. )

Alright, went home after school tday. Bonding session w th biz peeps was awesome, laughed like nobody business. :x well, we won tgether w another team. Shared peanuts w th other winner and we got drawing boards ._. What's worst was we don't even need t use those papers ): Wasted. Well, went home and called b. Then dillydally and went out t favourite place. Seriously needed t rant and talk/eat/crap my heart out. :D Feel so much better, heh. Promise made w b, we'll both do th ultimate thing on th same day. :/ omgomgomg, idk if i can make it. Sigh, this is so suck. What if(s) and but(s) are popping up. Dey, as I said. I'm gna try. <: Slowly guess, you might as well give up. :D

Beach Fiesta photos coming up! <:

xoxomel,
cause without you,
it was like th end of th world,
now i take that back.
I'm taking back what I shoulda have. {:
I'm not dying empty handed. <:

2010-02-02T16:31:00.004+08:00

Yeh, if only(s).

Home early again! (y). Didn't really want t linger there so long, idk what was i thinking too. Anyway, weather's so crazy. Seems like it's going t rain yet th sun just came out. Wind freakin strong, super shiok ttm. I guess I'm going t get an afternoon nap after having ice cream <:

xoxomel,
it was all sucha beautiful dream,
I still have t wake up.

2010-02-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

( Written all over my face. )

Yeh, what's th big deal? It's already Feb-worry. Time really flies I guess, yet I still have not learnt my lessons and stand up from my mistakes. Well, th say what comes around goes around but why am I always seeing th bad people win? :/ It feels weird when people whom I gave advices too turn back and give me back my own words. Maybe this is th real reason for what comes around goes around.(?) Ah, shit man. I really fhate this feeling I'm having. Tmr's class is at 8am. I swear t myself I cannot be late, it's already 1.21am. Sigh, I wonder how am I going t sleep. Hopefully not like last night, one of th most horrible night. :/ Mm, training was tiring. I feel so sucks when h t m a m m, c a o y m m f s u. I w t c o t t l , j l l t j l a .

xoxomel,
I wish febworry t be over,
but I know this memory will hunt me forever.
I remembered one of th 2o1oresolution was t be stronger.

2010-02-01T00:25:00.005+08:00

( U ).

( mine. )

I thought I grew stronger, seems like once again I'm blow down by just one lil thing. :/ Sigh, this is so much like last year. Thanks for giving me th early reminder, congrats yeh. <:
& I posted quite alot when I locked this space up. Yet I deleted them all away. :/

xoxo,
I would trade and give away all of me,
just t make you happy.

2010-01-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

{ 'cause imma tell you one time. }

( I have nothing more t hold on. )

I'm feeling even more tired and down now, more then last time, more then ever. :/ Why ? Dang, ihate feeling like this . It's like I know why yet I'm still allowing it t happen. :E

xoxomel,
'cause I believed in your beliefs.
now I'm lying in my own mess,
made up of my beliefs. :C

2010-01-19T22:20:00.002+08:00

{ Cause everything's gna be alright. }

rawr, didn't go t school tday. 'Cause i think I'm sick, and ytd's training really causing me t ache everywhere :/ I can't believed what happened ytd. Haha, training was tiring or is it just me ? Dang, swear I'm gna stick t my plan :D Mm, baby's back from th vet, been seeing her going in and out of the vet cause of th toothache ): Ohwell, timetable officially sucks from tmr onwards. There's s&w on wednesday morning, 8.3oam. ._. fml. I'm whining throughout the day, dang. I'm gna turn in now so I can wake up tmr ;D night.

xoxomel,
w i m l f o p t f ,
w d i c s m f p w d e c ?

2010-01-17T21:36:00.002+08:00

( Get You Down. )

'cause i was wishing you would pop by.

I wanted t blog cause I feel really good tday but tday's over and it's monday now :/ Dang, there's training and tday's class is really draggy. ): Rawr, i dont want t bring so many stuff yet they dont even need t be used. >: Waste space and my back's already in pain. Joke of th day, I think I sprained my ankle while doing the grocery. ._. Ouch, nehmind. Ohhhya, tday I think I'm a happy girl. Managed t do what I wanted tday (: I bought my wants and needs, I had what I missed but sadly tday so bored w/o _____. ): ): ): Don't give me high hopes when you're planning on thrashing them okay? Ohwell, I did say that I was tired right ? Alrights, pack my bag for tmr. Nightsya.
.
..
.
..
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to my ~~bitch~~girl♥, I've known you for so long. You're always th one who stood by me, giving in t me so many times and planning all those wonderful moments. Gee, it's been some time since we really talked. I'm glad you told me th truth, it was a promise made way back then and now you broke it. Well, I don't really mind actually. We don't really meet up anymore, we drift apart and we seldom catch up but you always seems t be there for me :/ I'm sorry for not being there or even neglecting you. Thanks for telling me th truth, I wouldn't put that t heart, cause this friendship is something I would like t have for life. (: Let's not let one small matter blow up this friendship okay? :D Don't be surprised w my answer already okay. (:

xoxomel,
Absence makes th heart grow fonder.
Doesn't seems t apply t you. :/

2010-01-17T00:23:00.003+08:00

{ Go Red. }

I've forgetting about th real me.

Time just fly when you don't notice :/ It's already th wee hours of Sunday, very soon we need t wake up early in th morning for school and etc. I'm not in a good mood cause my shoulder and back are aching. }: Idk if it's ache or what but i'm not feeling well. :E Aye, overnight at cousin's place after Nafa &Lasalle open house. It was so nice over there, like *drools* can. Okay, it's very nice cause they pay for the price. How can we compare our minor with their major right. Haha, nevermind. Able t proceed is already very good for me <: Anyway, had ice monster, walk around slack and chit chat and went over t cousin's place. Damn regret on not having my brownies and bbt at dhoby ghaut while i was there! >: Sadded. Did my homework at their place, i'm a good girl. And mahjong just now! >: More mahjong session wanted kay! Hehe, tmr (or maybe later) will be going out w daddy for brunch and then hopefully can go t have a peek at newloveeee. {: Gee, i can't wait.

xoxomello,
i miss all those times.
was it all my fault all those
had gone down th drain?

2010-01-12T18:25:00.003+08:00

{ cause you could never understand. }

class ended quite early tday, finally got time t go home for afternoon nap :D Went makan at T1 w clique then homed. It rained a lil, i got caught in th drizzle. Hopefully I'm not gna get any sicker. >: Then home, wanted t sleep but sissy switched on th drama show and I got hooked. Didn't even managed t sleep but I'm so aching here and there. My shoulders and back are giving me problems again. ): Ahhhh, i'm just starting w th assignments :/ I'm hating maths man, dang. Anyway! I bought another new love ! Ear Piece, gna takecare of it. I dont wna spend my moolah on this type of things! Hehe, th previous one(s) were not t my liking :/ I like th one I bought, but half of clique said not nice, half said nice. I'm half hearted but I like so I buy :/ Rahr, nehmind. Trying t save now, haha. It's 12.28am now, dang i'm sick for sure. :/ sneezing like someone missing me :x Ha. Fat hope. Okay, i think i'm going bonkers already :E Too stress = mentally unstable. :x I think I type quite alot already, OH! I just did a 4x continue sneeze. D: So cool and uncool at same time, okay I'm gna go my bed and hope i'm better when I wake up (: 10am class, yay. :D

Congrats t those who scored well for their Olevel! <:
It doesn't matter how your results turn out,
disappointing or surprising,
as long as you know you tried your best,
you deserve a pat on your back :D

xoxomel,
the love you take is equal t th love you give <:

2010-01-11T00:13:00.000+08:00

{ Eat You Up. }

Failed Retail Therapy. Went out but didn't even managed t get anything for myself :/ Even had trouble getting seats for dinner, >: What a day. I don't like t wait yet everywhere we went need t wait. Tsk, tried so many places but all also no seats >: Dang, then finally settled down at plaza sing's pizza hut ): Wanted mahanttan fish market but also very occupied. :/ Hkc's becoming too everyday so wanted a change. :D Ate at 9+, hungry. Service there ain't so good, but I so heart hut's patter :D Idk if th names I mention are correct but ya. Ate and went home, how boring can my saturday be ? :E
Sunday:
Was home again, hehe. Stayed home th whole day, only went out for brunch at yishun<3 and then spend sometime w mommy 'decorating' her new love :D Hehe, so damn hawt. No pictures of her new love but I can't wait. Maybe in one year's time, idc what they say but I can't wait :D hehe, i'm feeling so restless now :/ Did I mention that it was a crabby day tday <: Had chilli crab tday w family. <: (Y), I likeeee.

xoxomello.
it's easy t feel like you dont need help
but it's harder t walk on your own.

2010-01-08T18:08:00.005+08:00

{ Unable t fight for myself :/ }

Weather's been really great, I threw my phone aside after reaching home. It rained, I started eating from my tub of ice cream, then I fell asleep after finishing. :/ Shiok, cause it was raining :D Then I woke up, watched tv and started eating my ice cream again <: (Yay.) Then I fell asleep again :/ And I'm awake now, feeling tired already. Gah, earlier I sleep th later I'm waking up. I think I'm going t sleep early tday :D Meeting B or Clique tmr! It's been sometime since I shopped happily. It's been someday since I was happy D:

xoxomello,
'cause you'll just be th middlegirl for everything
in this screw up life.

2010-01-07T21:33:00.003+08:00

{ Bang wall and die , }

.
King of my heart.

this is so *pull hairs* please, my sketch book is losing weight. I wna get new sketch book, I can't wait for training. I can't wait t piak all my stress out. :/ one tiny assignment and i'm already drowning. Great, I've updated at the most crucial time and time is running out D: Hope tmr class's canceled then I'll sing the happy birthday song for school tmr ! <:

'cause you ain't my runner up. :D

xoxomello,
mel got weird taste :/
Hahaha.

2010-01-01T16:31:00.004+08:00

{ Hello 2o1o, Goodbye 2oo9. }

Okay, 'partaye' on th last day of 2oo9. Well, very funny way t end my 2oo9 and start my 2o1o uh? :x aye, i'm penning down my resolutions, wants, needs and everything. I've asked B for basketball session later on. And it just rained. :/ Shingz, i really don't feel well. And somebody just made my day worst, thank alot ah. :E Idk why are people saying that 2oo9 is such a sucky year, I pretty like mine cause it seriously was an eye opener. I'm glad I've seens so many things happened and know much more about th world and my surrounding. :D Tho it didn't really bloomed, I'm still glad I managed t survive for the past 17(and counting) years ;D Still needa thanks my parents for th 'support' you both gave, my friends for being there when I needed a shoulder. Tolerating my stubborn character and my whadaheck attitude. :/ Well, hopefully my 2o1o pen-down resolutions won't go wasted like my 2oo9's. :E and lastly, I found my 2oo9 resolution in my wallet ! :/ So sad t see my unaccomplished list of resolution :/

xoxomel,
how t start th year right w
so many things pulling you down. :/

2009-12-31T01:54:00.002+08:00

{ Gone w the Wind. }

Just a few more hours and it's another brand new year. Hopefully w a brand new start, mm. Kinda think bout it, this 2oo9 is gna be over. Time just flies when we don't keep track of it . I have already forgotten how I spent my 2oo9, what accomplishment I made and what I want t improve on. I haven't even set my 2o10 resolution. :/ Gosh, think I have about another 22hours more t do a new wishlist and my resolution list, gna pin it up on my cabinet and keep it w me in my wallet {: Hehe, anyway! Tmr shall be the last day of 2009, I really wna countdown but but but th thoughts of the flooding trains/squeezy walkway has really crash my ideas. I told B that hkc will always be opened for us. So hopefully after work and after countdown. I can start my 2o10 on a meal in favourite place. :D but there are just so many buts and ifs in my mind, gawd. ): And I think I'm falling sick. Dang, i'm having th urge t open my tub or mint ice cream nao at 2.04am. :/

P/s: I likeeee th mintmint smell in my hair after using my mintmint shampoo :D :D :D

xoxomello,
taste of reality,
cause I missed having that feeling :/

2009-12-27T19:23:00.003+08:00

{ Not for your ♥entertainment. }

I wna concentrate on blogging so I closed down my facebook and other etc :x but when I finally closed down everything, I totally forget what I wna blog. Fail man.
Tsk.

xoxomello,
last christmas,
this christmas,
it ain't gna be merry christmas,
unless it's w you. {:

2009-12-24T01:09:00.004+08:00

{ We belong t You and Me. }

Dang, I'm hearing about th release of results etc and how excited/disappointed they are in the result but I cannot/don't know why i can't see my results ! I need some help here (!!) Best part is that I totally forget about my final powerpoint submittion t Kkaytan, yet that crazy bunch of lovely people told me that everyone pass ! Whoa, idk idk idk. Guess I needa sit back and just wait for something bad t happen. :/ Rahr, anyway. Work was dumb, many people broke my heart. Tho tday is sucha eyecandyspottingday, summarize it all : It's so Shingz. :E Woke up early early today t accompany dad and sister t her secondary school. I didn't even know why I was needed there. Nehminds, ohohoh!

Christmas is coming, is 2days. And school's starting already, shingz. I'm writing a list, I'm checking it twice. :D Shall top up my bank and spend th reminding! {: Yay. Can't wait for my 'stocks' t comeeeee, and and and

MEL's LOOKING FOR THAT RIPPED JEANS/LEGGINGS THAT'S DAMN OMGONMYWANTEDLIST! {: Daddy Santa, you're the best. If you are not getting me that, at least send me a list of address where i'll be able t get th stuff on my wanted list okay! xoxo! :D :D :D

xoxomel,
congrats on leaving sucha awful bad memories behind.
I'm glad you got over sucha fytch. {:

2009-12-22T17:28:00.003+08:00

{ I wanted to call to say how much I missed you, }

Today, i decided to bake my chirstmas coookies <: but sadly and disappointingly didn't turn out as I expected. There's no Christmas Mood in them and I just wasn't happy w them outcome :/ Rahr, this just suck cause I really put in alot of effort in making th very stubborn dough. Plus th stupid weather keep changing. Causing me t run about th house :E Nehmind, shall experiment again someday. Hehe. {: Anyway! I'm peeling really horribly. ): Didn't want t step out of th house till I'm done but I couldn't ! Had to work so everything was crashed. Rahr, okay met B at Yishun. Yay, finally dined at favourite place. Mel wasn't in a good mood so I ate bit by bit but sum it up I ate alot. }: Walked again, had bbq wings. :D It's super nice t eat when you crave on the spot. (y). Okay, it's 1.32am nao and I've t bring my sister t school tmr at 8am. :/ Needing t work in the afternoon and having t wake up earlier than expected sucksz. }: Shall turn in after uploading th photos, lousy quality. Sigh.

Photo Update:

Family of Six Hearty ~~Ginger~~bread People.

InnocentBoy and LovelyGirl, hahahahahaha.
Guess I was just too bored waiting for the earlier batch t be done :x

Looks can be deceiving :E So cute, I don't bare t eat em :x

xoxomel,
is it too late t realized?
is it too late t make amendments?
cause in this life,
I've too much regrets.

2009-12-20T22:07:00.003+08:00

{ I'm no fool. }

< 讨厌做你的傻瓜 >

Everything Happens For A Reason Nothing Happens By Coincidence. So Familar right? :E Well, I said this quite a few post back I think :x Mm, just makes perfect sense to me. Don't try t fake me when you have already plan about it long time ago. I'm no fool, I don't like t be th fool you think I am. How does it feels like t be stab in th back and then swearing that it wasn't you ? Okay, after hearing th whole story. I know it might be just myself thinking too much but hey shouldn't you just mind your own business ? This is really irritating to hear two party talking about th same story with different content. :/ I had enough of you, you and your stupid childish act. Grow up, dont tell lies when you can't cover up for yourself. Don't try to be the angel when you're causing everything to fall apart. FY, S Y R F B A B. Don't be the busy body, don't be another two timer, don't pick your nose into others problem. Don't act ___ when you're totally th opposite. Don't don't don't tell another story just because you want t save your own face. Please freaking grow up and don't play dumb games w your dumb freakin' friends. Congrats, you've lost my trust. In fact, you don't deserve all these.

Idk what got into me, I was alright until Y C O A I S T T O F B. Moment of anger? O W I J F J ? Arugh, whatever it is . I've learnt it the hard way, i'll forget all those happenings. And please remember, you're the one who destroyed this.

xoxomello,
sigh. what was I just thinking of.
z.b.j, sudden feel of ringing you up. :/

2009-12-17T23:28:00.003+08:00

{ 我喜欢晚上的天空 , 因为星星代表你的陪伴. }

Can't wait for tmr, tday I'ma good girl cause I did my chores and stayed home th whole day <: Didn't even step out, hehe. {: Anyway, finally opened up my eyes on the real world. I never knew that there's so many fake-ies here, well you never know if your lover is cheating on you(vice-versa) or your best friend's actually was your lover's sleeping partner. You never know, that's why to all those naive people out there who thought that your world's perfect. Think again (:
You can give trust, but don't blame whoever who hurts you when you get a taste of reality.

xoxomello,
cause even if my world is in chaos,
I'm gna stay strong and smile,
cause I know I still got you.

2009-12-08T12:43:00.007+08:00

{ Get over and done with. }

I'm so gna get killed for this post :/

see, how t not get killed right.

this one won't get killed I guess, w B at Eighteen Chef after dinner at HKC :D Hehe. Delicious, totally forget about the Calamari Rings we ordered too :E No photos for that, well. Our new hangout place kay B! (:

Just a very anyhow update, haha. I spend so much on un-needed items ! }: Nehmind, once in a while I guess :x haha, I miss so many people. :/ Suddenly remembered one by one of all the lil things we did together. :/ Sister told me that today is a very starry night, I agreed. I actually look at the dark sky for a few many mins for those sparkling stars. Sister said they were blinking red and white. Heh, actually I thought so too. :E Something wrong w our eyes I think. Sigh, tmr last day of school. :/

Lil Meow we found at the staircase, so cute cans. :E Fell in love w it, sigh. It really breaks my heart t part w things I really treasured :/ S, I hope you'll stay strong and pass this hard stage. You can do it alrights ;D

xoxomello,
cause that's not how our story should end.

2009-12-04T00:51:00.005+08:00

{ New moon on a full moon, }

{ Totally loved ttm, }

gah ! Just came back from movie w bunch of supercrazyclique, hehehe. Thanks for booking the tickets and keeping your promises ! Next one in juneeeee 2010! <: I can't wait. Anyway, finally presentation is over! Dumbfounded, idk what t say. :o but it's okay, left w renderings (y). Was so addicted t L4D that I lost track of time and was almost late :x went home and out again t meet those crazypeeps, had dinner and went into th cinema :D Yay, realised I didn't really watch Twilight. (!) Tho I read th book but I'm so gna go get the dvd for twilight. (y), after movies walk back t admiralty (: then waited for daddy t come pick me up. <: Ahs, what a nice day. So many happenings, idk good or bad. Sigh,

i h b t s t s s, i d k i i t b i j h t i t y j l a f a n m. c i d w t b t n v a i d w t g h a, m y c s t i t a w e f b i j m b m. y j w u, w y ?

Say things as if you mean it, don't say things that you don't mean just bcause you needed accompany. Don't make promises you cannot keep and don't give high hopes when you don't want bigger disappointments. Life's that hard, but you'll still needa continue living.

Jacob Black is hot hot hot ! Everyone went Whoa Weetyouwheets when he ahemsahems can! {: Ahs, sweet.

xoxomel,
cause you did it again and again,
that's why I decided t stop and never t believe it again.

2009-11-30T03:15:00.002+08:00

{ Final Lap. }

It's 3.16am now, I'm still doing my theory notes. >: Shall divorce afterwards you since you are not cooperating with me ! Gahhhh, after flipping through the papers and books for the whole sunday. I'm finally taking a real break, hehe. Enjoyed my cheeky chocoalates and sat down doing nothing. {: Almost fell asleep in my piles of papers. :x My living room is so messy w all the cluster of used and unused papers, balls of written craps and endless doodles everywhere. :x ;x :x It's in the wee hours, I'm feeling so numb and hungry. Idk should I even go sleep, cause i wna wake up early early early tmr :E I don't even know what time's the test tmr/today. Great, I'm soooooo going to replenish my sleep time after all th school work has been done. Shyt! I just remembered about my powerpointS. >: Sighhhh, how I wish we have longer hours during th most crucial period. Ohdear, I just realised I'm getting hyped up. I actually mistook milk coffee drink as milk .___. I guess this means I'm able t sleep later and study more ! Ahhhh, I wna go get my pay and shopppppp. >: I needa exercise alreadyyyyy. Gosh, it's 3.3o already. Brother's still mugging, idk if i should continue or what. Seems like my class is already asleep :E Gah, stressed :/ I know, who's not? >:

xoxomel,
cause she was the one you were holding onto
while you sang me lullabies,
cause you didn't mention about the life that exsisted,
you thought we were just friends,
but I guess we were both wrong.

so tired,
mentally and physically.

2009-11-29T00:09:00.003+08:00

{ You keep me going. (: }

{ You reminded me of a self I didn't knew I had. }

hehe, i'm sucha happy girl now <: Some reason just made a omglousyday into a ohsowonderful day :D Can smile like ohsowidely. :D Haha, anyway. Shall not say what cause only (L) and that (P) knows what happen <: Okay, tday I went back t school ! Finished touching up on autocad while I'm left w 3dmax. Dangs, tmr shall be a good girl and wake up early t finish theory notes and then shopping time <: <: <: Idk if it's confirm but ya I must shop tmr I don't care. ;D Anyway, cafe-d w brother again at lao di fang(L). I'm hungry now. Shyts, no i'm not gna open my cabinet full of snacks. :D Shall control, then
i'm turning in before some superman come yank at me :x :x :x

xoxomello,
you're my heart heart heart breaker.

2009-11-28T01:25:00.003+08:00

{ You would deny.}

I stoned at the empty page for so long, should I update at 1.25am plus I needa get up at 8am tmr? >: Idk, sigh. Since I'm here then might as well write a few more words. haha, anyway. tday was real good t my sister. {: I help her cut bangs, laughs. Now we have the almost same hairstyle.

I don't know what's she doing w that face ._.

Super Bangs,

so, i stayed home th whole day. (y), wasted my day. It rain ohsoheavily, ditch the basketball idea. :E Dangs, wanted t go shopping tday but ditch that too cause of the suckup weather ): Aye, spend my saturday at home .___. Well, it feels so yucks t know that you have t go school on a saturday :/ So many urge, so lil time ):

xoxomel,
needa get a life and step out,
get a life of your own.

2009-11-24T21:40:00.003+08:00

{ Leave if you want. }

{ I want to find my way out. }

I'm prepared, I think. Just forget it, I give up thinking so much. :/ I f s f u n, w c h j u ? I n t i w k t f y b l a t w y t a d t, i j s o s. i c h y i y d l m , n i k s i n g t c a m .
Someone asked if Im happy, I said I am.
now I think I need to think twice.

Get well soon Chan Jia Li Cherie, <:

xoxomel,
think before you answer,
cause you're just telling lies,
hiding behind that regretful heart of yours.
._.

2009-11-21T14:07:00.005+08:00

{ Oh.Happy.Day }

I Hearts Hong Kong Cafe ttm. <:

BEANCURD LOVEEEEE <:

Date of th Day ! {:
(and his Roti Prata. )

Okay, this habit has got to stop ! very soon, people around me will get broke and I will very soon have t declare bankrupt. :/ Dangs, photos above are not taken tday. Some day back, lol. Recently 'eat-ries' are not uploaded yet :x Cause I don't want people t come t my blog and see all the food food food. Make me look like a glutton ! ;/ I'm not one okay ! Anyway, tday mel's a goooood girl. Stayed home the whole t headache about presentations and schoolworks and more due work :/ Sigh, tmr (or maybe later) I needa go down t lavander :/ for Chingay (!) (y). Then after that going school, for more powerpoints/ catching up. Tsk ! Hopefully tmr I can reach on time :x Hahaha, I'm getting so hyped up when I wna go sleep . Omg, I can't wait for many many occasions t come ! Shall go back now <: Haha. xoxomel, cause I decided to turn around and walk out of your life this time, with a smile on my face.

It's feels so good, so different.
I'm glad we're how we are now.
xoxo.

2009-11-19T23:58:00.003+08:00

{ Over the Moon :D }

{you make me see stars on the brightest night :D }

I'm a very very very very blessed girl tday :D (y), j said I sighed alot tday but i think that tday quite a good day :D idk why, but <: <: <: . Anyway, a few test are over. Tmr's gna be theory paper1. Idk what t study, die. Thanks Jrini for the notes, thank you thank you thank you for the effort put in ! :D Came home 'early' tday, ate home-cook-dinner (like finally) and watch a lil tv for a while. My theory notes left untouched, laid on the table. Then brother ask t go supper, i went, and my theory notes left untouched is still there. And now, I'm back and my theory notes lies infront of me untouched. :/ I wonder how tmr, 25MCQ. Should be filled with tricky answers here and there. Sigh, and and and. I saw wb when I was going home from yishun, sooooo coincidentally. B said that finally I saw someone I know when I'm w him, he thinks that everytime we go out, sure see people he know but idk. :/ Hehe, nvm. :D Same routine again, I wna go on a diet. Anyone wna help be my human bank? :E Ohoh, some nice person's gna gimme wake up call later ! :D See why I'm so <: <: <: now? Tday everyone so kind t me, EXCEPT those abcdefg people i shall not say. Ohhhhh !

And hor, i wna write a piece of my mind here : StupidddddHead, you are the one who did bad planning and now you're saying US inconsiderate? Please hor, spend so much money build one lousy room filled w nice nice things? They have exams then we have to keep quiet uh? Then what about when we have our exams? I don't see you asking them t be considerate and lower down their volume what. We're grown ups, we can follow instructions. You assume we don't know and you think that we want t disturb others ah? What about them disturbing us? Why not you just go back t your office and do what you should do rather then standing there for hours looking at students stressing their braincells ? :E More I say more I'm pissed, damn. I thought you were a very nice person, I thought we could enjoy being under your leadership but I guess now we know we are so so so damn wrong. :/ I'm disappointed, cause you don't even respect us. You treat us like junk, you look down on us. I don't like you, i shall treat you how you treat me. So you better know your limits ;D cause I know we won't be nice t whoever who mistreat us :D

Whoa, cool or what ;D Hehe, ima happy girl, Im very chilled too! <: Goodnights before someone gives me a scolding tmr :D Nights lovelies.

xoxomel,
cause you filled it up with Love.

2009-11-19T00:14:00.003+08:00

{ DEADMEAT >: }

{ He told me: To let go of what I couldn't hold on. }

I wanted t be a very very good student tday after staying back in school till 7pm, I wanted t come home after dinner t practice for tmr's Photoshop {which I sucked big time at} Phrase Test. I did copy down notes, I think I know what t do but ... here's the best part.

MY PHOTOSHOP TRIAL ENDED, I DIDN'T HAVE THE PLANS FOR THE PHOTOSHOP. I ONLY CAN RELY ON MY MESSED UP NOTES. GOODNESS GRACIA MEL. >: What could get worst? D:

Sigh, best is that during the explaination session w the class, i had my massive headaches and then I went t sleep. When I woke up, everyone was leaving for break already .____. Stupid co-op not opening, no sour power for me D: And damn, I needa save moolahs >: I can't wait for _____ and ______ t come. Hehe, (y). So instead of whining over here. I'm gna go sleep early and then go school earlier tmr <: Haha. Hopefully eh?

xoxomello,
flaunt what you have,
that beautiful smile should
not be kept under tha heavy mask.

2009-11-15T01:34:00.003+08:00

{Apologizing doesn't mean things
would be back to how it used to it be.}

/. Being myself = Digging my own grave.

Happiness is mine, i decide if I wna destroy it or treasure it with both hands. Well, I'm in a happy state today. Cause I finally got what I wanted, J.E.T. <: Brother got Pixon12 while daddy got w995 on thursday. I'm stuck in between jet and w995 D: Both so nice. Tsk, decide afterwards. Now needa go prepare t meet dearest ! {:

xoxo.xoxo.

2009-11-11T01:33:00.003+08:00

{ Put on repeat. }

{ I don't wna be there when you're hot and cold. }

tsk, didn't went t school tday. Sorry for not answering your calls and not replying all you people msges ! :x Sorry mboy'f for not going t school w you! Next time next time. :D Mm, training was bagus. It's been a long time since we have those trainings and it did make my legs go jelly. Now here pain there pain all thanks t no proper warm down. :E Walking in the rain for the past few days cause me t have fever, dangs. Ahya, fever also good, i got my own reasons. (: Haiyo, sometimes I like, sometimes I dread th rainy days. :/ Sometime t urge just grow so strong, sometimes I just wna kill myself for being me. Sometimes I wna just take a break. D; Sometime, this facade just slips away and you're seeing the real me. Sometimes I find it hard t trust you, find it hard t trust myself. I find it dumb t believe again, I find it a habit t lie. Sometimes when don't say anything, doesn't mean I'm not okay. I just need time of my own. Sometimes when I smile, it doesn't mean I enjoy your joke. sometimes when I'm me, I'm actually not me. It's hard to understand, sometimes when I blog and use 'I' , i don't really mean Me. This is getting into me, th more I type the more I remember. I'm going t go sleep now, i pray hard my leg recover tmr.

p.s/ I think I sprain my ankle. D:

On the happy note :

Happy Birthday En Qi ! {: Sorry didn't went school t wish you. :E But hope you enjoy your day alrights <:

Happy Birthday Li Fang! Haha, idk you got come tday anot. :x Happy birthday ah, dont late already okay! <:

Happy 8th monthsary girl ! <: xoxo.
Tho it's been sometime since we went out, i'm glad we still have each other alrights :D See you on thursday <:

xoxomel,
It's funny how you think you actually mean something to someone,
and they just turn around and prove you wrong.
-runawaytrain.

2009-11-08T18:02:00.004+08:00

{ Crazier. }

{Black and white,
past and present.}

Was home th whole day, went out w daddy after I woke up in the afternoon. Went to many many nearby places t look for new phone/new line. BUT BUT BUT, JET NO MORE STOCK. Screws, daddy say I dont get pixon better. Cause I'm not someone who will takecare of my things :/ Hayo. Nevermind, I reserve one Jet at sembawang already. Ahyeer, a few more weeks :E
Well, i admit haven't been myself lately. Thinking too much, too much for me t handle I guess. People say, I can't take stress, I can't take pressure. Maybe it's true, cause I deserve it. I want t do extra things even tho I have workload up t my neck :/ Serve me right. ANYWAY, been enjoying everynight. I'm glad I have B t keep accompany me t nearby for meals. Big meals, thanks for the treats and you should thank me for some treats too right ! Ha, been really tight these few weeks. Haven't been able t take a breather. I did study abit at home, I did do my school work when I'm at home, I did think about other stuff when I'm in th train. I did try t wake up early and reach school in time. At least I did try, but when will things be enough for you? :/ Sigh, it's 12.09am now. I needa go sleep now, >:

P/s.
I'm Soooooooo sorry Naz! >: Didn't mean it, from bottom of my heart :E
Super Duper Ultra Many Sorries Nazzie.

P.P/s.
Ahpa, maybe you don't read this but I'll be here for you okay ! {: No worries, I believe everything will turn out fine and she'll be safe. You'll see her grow up to be a v nice lady, I believe. {: Anything just tell nu er :D

xoxo, you.
we closed our eyes and enjoyed the silence,
we stop thinking and enjoyed each other's company,
why can't we just be in-love.

2009-11-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

{ Hold A True Friend With Both Hand. }

What comes around goes around, that certainly means so much. Sigh, idk why th more I see the more dishearten I get. Even tho I know it's over and over it too, but th feeling of being evil for the last time again is so strong. >: Don't understand, maybe I'm not suppose t ? G J O W I A D K C I T T A I B W C I J K T T ? I R Y T M T T T I O F O, T H E M J T L Y K. I'm starting t lose faith, lose hope. I'm changing, everyone is . Cause I had enough of th mistreats, enough. ): I'm so not getting what I wanted, blah. Someday, somehow (w) we'll get treated as royalty. {:

(Y)ayness to hong kong cafe ! {: Never fails to give me sunshine after tha rain :D I (L) Hong Kong Cafe-ing w B. ;D Sometimes, you'll never understand.
Pathetic? Yes I'm sure you are. You don't step on others tail when they don't step on yours, easy? :D

xoxomel,
It is remarkable how similar the
pattern of love is to the
attern of insanity.

2009-11-02T22:28:00.001+08:00

D:

Why.

2009-11-01T01:30:00.003+08:00

< Happy Halloween, >

{ to see a rainbow, you got to overcome th rain. }

was really in th Halloween mood tho didn't dress up and went candy collecting :x but but but mel was in a totally Halloween mood ! {: Was an all black day for mel, from th hair to her make up to her clothes and t her heels and shoes and socks and nails. Whoa, cool but sigh. Didn't reach target, tday was in shop th whole day. Didn't even realised it was raining outside :x Hehe, so after that went t meet brother and god-bro and sis for favourite hangout place {: yayness, but but but >: Sigh, been spending too much. >: Booooyahs, well time t concentrate on studies now. Stressman, seriously need time off for myself. Brother ask me t bake tmr, I needa do powerpoint presentation slides for both Lifeskills and Study Trip. ): Monday need hand in somemore, bagussss. Sigh, tmr morning >: Let's hope tmr will go well. Gah, nights. Seems like I'm holding onto nothing, :E I don't wna fall sick mannnnn, sigh. >:
Tday is such a no link day, lol. Cause I can skip topics really well ;D Yaymee.

xoxomel,
put yourself in my shoes,
you wouldn't like t hear those nasty things said bout you.
>:

2009-10-25T01:06:00.002+08:00

{ A lil bit more, }

{ Cause you only wanted to be my friend, }

Ah! It's been sometime. :x Been studying, and trying my best t focus on studies more but seems like it's not working. D: Having something extra and studying ain't my thing, I'm coping but definitely not doing well. D: I needa take a break but I think I'm gna have t restart ): Sigh, this work caused me t have many different opinion on foreigners. ;D And this also caused me t have many many different cuts on myself ): Cute thing is, I even have a 'Y' cut on my hand, sigh. Nevermindddd, well. Ytd was a good day tho didnt reached target, after that went Hong Kong Cafe at marina. <: Boss not in, sadded. Ate alot, ordered many many times :x Epic stuff happened at th cafe, I wonder if I really so easy t catch people's attention. Just turned around t find th manager yet th staff kept coming t ask if I wanted t place new orders. Hahaha. Sit, eat, slack, laugh, but didn't take any photos. Guess we were too hungry ;x Was there all th way till 1am. Then realised that we dont have mrt home, so caught th nightrider home :E Reached home at 2am, whoa. Air was super good, chris said she wanted t see outside cause air was so fresh. Showered and slept. Shiok please, I haven't got a good night sleep since idk when. Been tossing and turning. Gees, nevermind. Start crapping online, <: Hehe. Alrights, nobody t crap with already. Find me too 'boomz' so they went offline D: Anyway, tmr 1530. If not sure die, it's 2.15am now. ): Can't continue this, but this is th only time where I can actually enjoy. :/ Sigh.

BY TH WAY, Belated生日快乐 to SuperDesman, Adrian, Teeyuan. {23October} Belated生日快乐 to Sufi { 24October} 生日快乐 to Ms Gan {25October}.
Like finally. :x

xoxomello,
cause I see things in many ways,
and I think of things in way you wouldn't expected.
You'll never understand,
I dont trust you when you say you do anymore,
cause deep down you don't. <:
Not gna give myself fake hopes anymore.

2009-10-17T23:58:00.003+08:00

{ Overwhelmed. }

{ If only, memories of you could just 'pop' away. }

Seems like this blog lacks of updates, ;E After penang trip, just became so busy and lazy for th uploading of photos and a proper update. ;x Aye, well shall not talk about that today. Today, i stayed home th whole day wanting t revise abit for th upcoming tests. Apparently, i failed terribly. I just sat infront of th television and watch shows for hours, then switched t th computer then switched t th tv-ing. Like shiok only, but dangs. :o Then after dinner, went Yishun w brother. Finally got to wear heels that I won't be wearing for a long long time, hehe. Then walked around, we both got th urge t try out new things so guess what. WE BOUGHT A FREAKING COOK BOOK. <: BEST, cause I can waste time reading through th cook book as if it's a favorite storybook. I lovelovelove th recipes inside, super cool ;D Well, i've got 4months t perfect th desserts, {: Overwhelm, now you know why. Since I got th ingredients might as well use them right. <: Alrights, not much time already. Buhbyes,

xoxomel,
sometimes words kept in th heart
might be just
words I needed t hear.

2009-10-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

{ Descended from Above. }

{ Try, }

I'm backkkkkk, in one piece too! Well, 5days 3nights just past like this. And as time flew while we were in penang, sad to say that school's reopening in 2days (one day cause it's like 2.22am now) Time flies when we're enjoying, so not used to being in Singapore after th trip. Haha, used to being in Malaysia/Penang. Where we think that things are cheap and th weather is not so humid. Well, back t reality. I still love Singapore aites. (: Cab t school w shelly, big heavy luggage ;x carry down t bus stop already panting can. Cab down and reach just in time, saw juster's super big luggage, suddenly felt that mine so small ._. Keep having th forget-t-bring-something feel tho I already check alot of time. Ahyo, finally board th bus over t penang. Super long ride but enjoyable. {: Too many many many photos, camera play stunt w me :/ So dumb t bring out a almost-full memory card out. D: More photos taken w lousy camera phone. Anyway, went alot of places, did alot of stupid things :x Enjoy alot, didn't really buy much. Sigh. It's okay I guess, upload those photos in fb another day, shall upload a few in th next post :D It's 2.42am now, might meet chris for vivo tmr, needa catch some sleep already (: Nights,

xoxomel,
If I walk would you run,
If I stop would you come,
maybe I'm not ready.

2009-10-04T23:23:00.003+08:00

{ Behind th lines, }

white lies that will never be discovered.

Ahhhhh. I'm leaving in a few hours time! :E Can't wait, I can't believe I haven't start packing yet, worst still Idk if I have th things I needed at home. Where did I go these few days, was busy w work nd went over t cousin's place on saturday after watching movie w chris, watched fame. Was so nice, what a movie. <: After that hong kong cafed and left for heeren. Saw many many things I wanted but nahhhh I wna save properly. :E Then went t novena, didn't know it was raining, walked at novena's mallS then went th downpour became a drizzle, went t cab t her place since idk where's th place :x Gah, waste money :/ Nevermind, bathe and didn't do much. Machiam ____ there, forget it. First and last time, sit there bbq and didn't do much. Felt so _____ cans, waited for th adults t finish their game then took aunt's car back. Reached home at 1am. Changed and went t bed, dangs. Shall not mention th rest, like ._. please. Anyway, things are still fine. I'm getting sick before th penang trip :/ Noooooo way, sadded. Idk whats gna happen tmr, idk what t get and what should I pack. Either a big and easy luggage or small and hard bags. :/ idkkkkkk, how how how. Siti said that if she's going on a trip. A few weeks before already pack hao. I don't know why I don't have th feel for this, sigh. :E but I;m feeling excited t travel w classmates uh. Haha.

xoxomel,
it feels good to be in a world of your own.
but this feeling turns sour
like an expire milk after sometime.

2009-10-03T01:08:00.003+08:00

{ So near, yet so far. }

Pop, th chemistry between us just disappeared.

D E A D T I R E D.
Mentally and Physically, going bonkers soon. Th moral of th story is, they still don't understand. Doubt they will, even tho they say they do, they really don't and even if they do, it is only th facade that's they understand. :/ So tired, haven't been taking a nice break for myself. Keep occupying myself w stuff that I don't needa do. Clearing up my cabinet, :E Gosh I'm gna be like superlady. :/ I'm bruised and need more energy bars and some jokes will be appreciated. Youtube's doing a great job but just not that entertaining anymore. :/ Maybe I just ask for too much, gah. Expectation gets high, fake hope also much more. Sigh, maybe i'm just tiring myself out. That isn't a bad thing after all, but but but .. Sigh.

xoxomel,
physically and mentally tired.
this robot/superlady job ain't working for me.
D E A D T I R E D. ):

2009-09-30T21:40:00.003+08:00

{ Second Thoughts. }

{Make someone happy, you will feel good too.}

It's been some timeeee, not this again :x Well, was busying w some stuff lately. Late night sleeps and early wake up calls, ahyo. Nevermind, it's all worth it. {: Haha, see ! Mel's becoming optimistic ! :D Cannot so negative, life will cut short one. :x Whatthehellmel. So, normal routine yesterday and then went Dhoby Ghaut get brownies♥ and milk tea♥ and walk round there since it's some time since I went window shopping. Bought already then went Novena and cabbed over t cousin's place. Hurhur, she having O level this year so went and gave her brownie♥ to destress and add oil for her. Everytime also burn midnight oil, of cause need help her replenish. (: Relax at her penthouse, damn shiok. Under th night sky w sucha beautiful scenery, really really so 'ahhhhhh..' feel. I'm beginning t think of this as a crap post. Dangs, anyway. Stayover at their place, th cabby uncle got so much confidence that he knew he was going th right place but in th end he drop me at th wrong condo ._. but he's sucha nice cabby ! <: okay, watch fann wong and christopher lee (?)'s wedding on tv. Didn't find it as nice as th other celebrity wedding. Maybe they go different theme that's why but their photoshoot was so so sweet please. Like can melt one, haha. Slept at 2plus, didn't managed t accompany cousin t burn midnight oil D: Jiayouuuuuus alrights, hehe. Woke up in th early afternoon th next day, house was empty. Aunt was doing housework. Needa go collect pay so aunt told me t check th address, some wu lu place at paya lebar. Wahliew, sucha humid day. I think th soles of my pumps are on fire. ): Walked here and there, wanted t cab there but aunt said that I'm crazy cause th place is just 5mins walk from where we were. :E Dangs, then so in a rush can. Like traveled t many many places today, you see. From Woodlands to Somerset to Dhoby Ghaut to Novena/Boonkeng to Paya Lebar to Aljunied to City Hall to Admiralty to ~~Bishan~~Yishun. YOU SEE, Alot of places hor. Then while rushing for training melt called and told me t U-turn ): No training this week, sigh. As I predicted, gah. Nevermind next week I'm also not in Singapore so can't go training also. ): Sigh, nevermind. So instead of training, I went for retail and sinfood therapy. Alone, I quite enjoy uh. Spend and spend like money is free flow. I just kept trying and choosing and buying and press press press. Dangs, nevermindddd. All my 血汗钱, all worth it. but but but , sigh. :/ Feel so restless, I had hong kong cafe(!) alone somemore. Hehe, th guy that sees me with my haojiemeis eating there everytime must have thought that I suffer heartbreak then go there have a feast cause I kept looking outside (at th scenery) then he kept walking past check my order. Haha, shopped and spend a bomb in cotton on, hehe. So shiok , I'm beginning t like solo-ing. :x So that's about it, just got home and wna sleep early. My dizzy spells are coming back ): Goodnights, sucha wordy post. Also nobody will read :x

xoxomel,
you will never know if you would succeed at th 1o1th try,
if you give up after your 100th failure.
Jiayous.♥

2009-09-24T17:26:00.004+08:00

{ You gave us fakehope. }

You're just an illusion I have in my heart.

Ayeayeaye, disappointments once again. Shouldn't have itchy hands and figure it out, shouldn't have played that stupid joke, shouldn't have been so naive to believe it all again. Ayeayeaye, nevermind. {:
Well, it's 2.37am now and I'm on Msn, Facebook, blogger, country story, 3D max and a few blogshops open. :/ How great, really that naive to be looking at it every min t see if you're back. Tsk.

xoxomello,
if there's ever an if,
th if would have already happened.
There's no going back for us,
cause th misunderstanding between us
could never be solve. :/

2009-09-21T23:47:00.010+08:00

{ Sinful.}

I miss th past.

{ Turn back th hands of time,I think things will still turn out like that. }

These few days, have feel feeling so not right. I'm not sure, but my temper ain't nice and I'm beginning t treat myself and my body so wrong. Sleeping late and waking up in th afternoon really spoils it all. Imagine that you're having holiday yet when you wake up, half your holiday is over. ): Waking up hoping it'll be a nice day and th next thing you know, someone just told you that you're useless. It feels like shit, seriously. I rather go back t sugar dreams than getting all these stuff when I wake up. Well, I got proofs that I've been enjoying life and treating myself t many many good food <: Hehe. Let th photo do th talking,

From clockwise;
Gelare w brother on 150909. Delicious can, another meal out kor! <: Then Breeks w Christina on 210909, just a cup of halzunut choco drink w marshmallows( totally loved ) and then my dinner at hong kong cafe ( no photos ;x ), then yogurt w clique at Tampines1. Damn delicious, not sinful except for th whole lot of chocolate syrup I wanted. ;E And lastly, mooncakes mommy bought. I didn't expect them t taste so winey. ;o Ate th whole mooncake and yea I felt a lil high already. I ate th chocolate one ( that taste like kinder surprise, there's many other more wine types ones based on th color.} Then there's teadot cafe w Jocelyn, damn tea-y feeling. So relaxed chilling there. Then it's food fair w brother again on th 190909. The last photo was another picture from Food Fair that me and my brother loveeee alot. (: Meatball w cheese inside, shiok. (:

Sinful, but I like. I don't care, like who does ;D Ah no I didn't eat all those in one day for goodness sake. ;E I think I spend like a bomb ( sounds familar uh ) on myself, well I don't mind pampering myself w my money. {: Anyway, shall upload till here for th time being <: People shoo-ing me off already ;x xoxomel, there's nothing left to hold on, but she's grabbing t every lil hope that's there, even if those are fake hope.

2009-09-20T20:09:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya!

Just a video I'm addicted to for the time being. {: It stuck idk why in my mind, damn cute too. Well, togetherness. Sigh, I miss th girls and our jalan raya days. :E Anyway, it's 20:09 on 20-09 in 2009! Damn coool, was on the way home from yishun when I remembered. {: I spend my today at home, thinking and making plans for my holiday {: My calander seems so pathetic, nah you shouldn't guess cause I won't tell <: Well today! I was just doing blogskins and trying them on my blogs, looks weird. So I guess I'm changing them soon, ha. Have new games t play which makes me sleep later i th night ): I'm having so many addictions now, like damn sad. }: I'm feeling so tired tho I slept till th sun was high high highhhhh up. Ohya, I forgot about some stuff which I was suppose t post but it's over already so I guess it should be alright. I don't stand anything in their heart too, so whatever. {: Heh, mel is a v happy girl cause I dreamt of so many cute lil dreams(which got cut off but many lil things D: ) but it was totally awesome cause this makes me a weeny bit happier tho I'm already happy. ( okay, what crap again.) Haha, i'm gna try turning in early today. <: Cause Shelly got plans for us tmr, i needa wake up earlier than today.
Tsk, yet again today it was th same.

xoxomello,
this is th last straw,
it will never be th same.

2009-09-19T23:49:00.004+08:00

{ Crying over spilled milk. }

Byebye Comex, Hellooooo Food fair/Games Fair. {:

The header says it all, been heading down t suntec for Comex Fair th past few days cause I work there, then now finally over. I know it's kinda late to post about th fair but I'm still gna post about it. {: Hmm, it was fun but I'm seriously regretting big time. My hands are so ruin after hours of touching th product ): Nevermindddddd, over already. Then, it's Food Fair. I went to suntec today w fbf and hell enjoyed it. <: Delicious can, but spend a bomb there. Kept investing in stuff I don't know. Nevermind, food fair made mel a happy girl. After food fair went next door, which was the Games Convention. Damn cartoon, saw cosplay people everywhere. Like super awesome. Saw girls in their ohsopretty costume. Didn't snap them cause there were just too many people taking their picture. Walk and play and took goodie bags {: Hehe, well I found some totallylame&awesome games t play there! Haha, anyway. Left suntec w a very happy stomach. Bought loads of food home too, gosh. Sinful day, but whatever. <: It's 2.38am now, i'm hungry. A more detailed post in the morning w peektures too! Heh, I saved some blogskins on my desktop but I keep delaying in changing them, dangs. Th new games that I'm trying are so wasting time. ): Yet, i'm like kinda addicted. Die, okay bye I seriously needa catch some sleep. :D

Xoxomel,
what has past,
has past.
No point wishing you could have those
memories back.

2009-09-18T00:59:00.003+08:00

{ Killing me with those spoken words. }

{If love could be put together that easily. }

I'm losing faith, I losing everything. Am I ? I just really needa good rest, it's 1am now. Great. Goodnights, I'm sick. I wna have a good meal. I wna enjoy, but seems like I can't. I told many that we should enjoy life while we can, but I don't think I'm setting a good example. Fmylife. ): I think I take your words too seriously, I don't understand why you can do what you like but yet I can't. It's like a voodoo cursed, well cursed you. I had enough of being your voodoo doll, it's not because you think I've changed, it's because I never had a chance t be me when there was you. Time for some brain cracking lolmelissolame time. {:
N a i t i s t m l, t n p s a w im t l i. I ko s ttm, f w h b d y e c ? N, n e o. S i d t g u s, r f y s b s . A l t m u b b.

Bye love,
i need focus. ):
like seriously.

2009-09-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

{ She paid a huge price for this, }

but he never did understand,
did he?

well, i successfully mia from one part of th world during th weekends cause I was just busying w IT FAIR. Yea I work my heart out during th fair, saw many many familar faces. Met new people, saw new faces but I guess it's all a once in a lifetime thingy t be like this . I kinda miss working there, sigh. Anyway, working there was extremely tiring but at the same time I enjoy. Th only thing I don't like is that I have t do alot of work before I can finally get my pay. Heard that we still have t go down paya lebar t get th pay ._. 4 days just past like this, back to school. :E Anyway, i teared abit when I was watching th show on youtube. Dang sad, so touching. ):

xoxo,
for something called L♥ve,
it's priceless.

2009-09-06T00:16:00.003+08:00

{ Devastated. }

(She will never ever trust like how she used to.)

Okay, contrasting w my title. I'm laughing out loud at how Show Luo speaks in english. HAHAHAHA. Enough of th hahaha-ing but cannot tahan, damn funnehhhh please. <: Alrightttts, I just came home. Was actually out the whole day. about 8am to 11pm. Dead tired cause I wore pumps that gives me blister ): Anyway, went for th Chingay meet up. Dang, went t th old people association. Cab t th new one which is so damn near Lavander. Wasted our bus strips and cab fare. Well, met new people. Sheena, she also another one of us. Cause she also went t the old head quarter, haha. Stupid cab driver, hey if we know how t go th th new headquarter, why must ask you how t go? Brush up your english please. {: Dressed up, had loads of fun. Hehe, damn shy can. >< After th meeting, went down t novena's square2. Feel so dumb there please, shopped myself while waiting for tasha. <: Mixed feelings, I wna go there again. Cause I didn't really shop finish novena, hehe. Maybe tomorrow go there do my shopping and at same time see bff play {: Kill two birds with one stone, haha. Anyway, dead tired. ): I feel v sour, gahhhhhh.

xoxomel,
get back on your feet and
think of me,
I'll pull you out of black hole.
Who's gna do that for me? :/

2009-09-04T23:10:00.003+08:00

{ Love via Express Mail.}

First and foremost,
Happy Birthday Dearest Cousin. {:

Alrights, update update. Short short one, been really lazy. ): I think i'm sick too, dang. D: There's chingay meeting tomorrow, hope we don't really needa do much things, i don't really wna move that much but but but 9am at lavander. .____. Shyto, like cui please. Saturday morning should be spend sleepinggggg. :/ I'm feeling so very ;o now, cause i realised I'm sucha cui person. Anywayyyy, i'm turning in already. Gotta wake up early tmr, hopefully I won't be late tomorrow. Oh! Went for SAF open house at Pasir Lebar (?) just now, so very the change of temperature. Maybe I got my fever from there, tsk. So hot yet th rooms were freezing :/ After open house, wanted meet buddy go sgh but things were complicated. Went eat Just Acia w clique at ehub. Hahaha, damn full &shiok. <: Bused to tamp interchange and then bus home. Whoa, friday night gone like that, saturday morning burnt. I still said I wanted t play basketball. ._. I feel my whole face and body warmmmmmm. >: Goodnights people, God bless me. Hehe, i did a triple sneeze. ;E Brr, hot & cold. Dangs. I'm lazy t upload all those overdue photos in facebook, I gave up uploading them t blogger cause they always got missing halfway through th post. Tsk! Goodnights, for real. Hurhur, bless me again. Idk why I keep sneezing when I'm gna end th post. :/

xoxomel,
I crashed,
and I'm on my own tonight.
Or maybe for the rest of my life.

2009-09-02T16:21:00.003+08:00

{ Down. }

{I just needa find myself again, cause this life ain't easy.}

I can't believe I spend half my day in school blogshopping, only making myself sadder and more depressed ): Well, already moved on th 2nd storey yet I'm stuck on th first. Great, now I pulled another victim t join me in my shopping craze <: None other then Jia Li Chan, haha. We already stopped doing what we suppose t do liek hours ago when class is going t end in a few mins time (2mins to be precise.) Great, I'm hungry ;E Okay, time t go homeeee <: Bye!

//Edited.
I finally reached home, after school went tampines1 w clique. Walk awhile then shelly &Enqi went home. Left w Justerinini and weisan, ahyo. Ate and i walked them t their bus-stop/bus interchange, then I went t th mrt station t wait for chrisy. Trained down t Payar Lebra t meet up YongFamily, then went for dinner and then t visit Hannah& Joash. Damn cute kids, sadly they're leaving Singapore on friday ): Went home and now I'm home ! {: Took many many photos, uploading them soon <: Still uploading Marina Barrage photos t facebook. Ugh, taking v long. ):

xoxomel,
it's like moving mountains,
to really understand you.

2009-09-02T00:55:00.003+08:00

{ Buts. }

{Cause it's hard t just can't let go of what she have.}

Oh, it's September already. Time really flies, tsk. Sudden urge t run through my playlist and play 'wake me up when September ends'. :/ Aye, wanted t do some shopping today alone but didn't manage to. Wanted t watch movie but th rain spoils it all. Gah, stayed home till dinner time. Ate and went out, well. Past few days been in th rain and going out in the evening. :/ Guess I'm sick, again. Ha, met chris for 'dinner'. Walked around, wanted t get some lil things from here and there. Ohgosh, shopped and talked and ate. Finally got t have my Gelare <: Haha, so at least I did made my day happier. Home and ate favourite again, {: Made my day x2, but but but saw some stuff which we shouldnt. Dangs please. This is how I wasted my 'free day'. ): Not really that saddening I guess. Ha, Mel-issa with the Silent dash. :E It's late, I'm halfway (or maybe just 1/4) uploading all th Marina Barrage photos in facebook. Gosh, Idk why I have that feeling inside of me. Do I bear grudges ?
I just hope your Halo drop down and strangle you or maybe just make you realised how much damaged/ hurt you've done to people. ;o Nah, don't want so evil. {:

xoxomel,
I can't help feeling so helpless. :/

2009-09-01T00:17:00.003+08:00

{ Stronger,not. }

{ She tries screaming but nothing comes out. }

好累好累, my head's spinning. I don't really know what t do when I know all th happenings, i don't like being so useless and helpless. I know we can't do anything cause it is also HIS life but you don't expect me t sit there and enjy life while he's suffering there. I mean, for God's sake he's my friend. ._. Dang. 好累, so tired. I'm going t bed already, nights.

xoxomel,
for the best of both world,
I'm still next to never.

2009-08-30T22:33:00.004+08:00

{ Just a lil bit. }

{Nothing as beautiful as you.}

It's 12.28am now! I just told everyone goodnight and I'm offline now, but th sudden urge to just blog just blew me here. ;x Juster was sending me th superdamnBIG folder when I got DC. Dannnnnnng, ): Mommy exchanged thumbdrive w me! So now I'm like 8GB while she's like 2GB. She got tons of photos which only covered 300MB! ;E Haha, okay w bigger space in my thumbdrive. Can put more crpas inside. ;E At least I got someeeee photos from Juster already, expect more photos the next post. Meeting mingbin tmr after school t go wrss then meet ex-classmates. <: Awwwww, idk if th feel is still there anot. ): Sigh, anyway! I drafted th previous post, waiting for juster's photo. I went out in the evening after dinner t meet Love! {: Went t favourite hong kong cafe, totally loved.

Toast w milk tea, I should be full but I'm hungry :/ Dangs, time for bed. Head hurts cause I was damn clumsy just now ): &&&&! I cleared my cupboard, found many many many stuff. Gosh, I'm surprise at the number of small lil things I can find there. (: Aw, alrights. I'm listening to 月亮代表我的心, hehe. Idk why, but it's on repeat. {: Nights!

xoxomel,
cause th moon stands a place in my heart
& you don't !
Cause you're not th moon.
._. Joke!
You're nothing more then a pretty face,
you're just like what I heard.

2009-08-30T00:22:00.006+08:00

{ Again, and again. }

{Immune t this feeling.}

Hehe, i'm backkkkk. Dead tired, but I'm waiting for Juster to online t send me those photos! Well, 256photos I think. Greattttt, well I really enjoyed today very much. Tho we couldn't find a shady area t have our picnic, i had fun under th sun. <: Went juster's place after that, her maid's leaving already! ): Had super loads of fun in Juster's room, dave's so super cute. Tho he keeps forgetting my awesome name. ): He's sucha cutie, so is his brother! Grow up sure handsome guys one, hehe. Dave♥, mel wait for you 10years alright! <: Ha! Clique, no inside meaning alright. Just a joke please! Had mee soto, delicious but th food seems t won't go down. :E I'm full, but I'm hungry now. Dang. I'm tired too, sigh.

2009-08-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

{ I followed the wrong star. }

{Don't keep it in your heart, what are friends for. }

It's friday night and I'm gna turn in extreme early, at 11.45pm. Before 12am ! {: Totally no friday night mood, gah. Bf says that it's not friday night cause it's not spent with him. Haha. School today was peaceful, uber quiet. Or was it just me being sensitive, nah i don't think so. {: Sighhhhhh, i've been sighing alot today. ): I don't likeeeee, dangS. I bury all these ______ by doing what I love most, blog shopping of cause. Well, saw many many many pretty apparel/shoes/bags to buy. I opened up Calculator and started bookmarking pages after pages, keying in prices and prices. So I ended up with a O.O, cause I ended up with SG$340 total price tag. D: Sigh, i deleted the folder tagged -ShopppingCraze-. I didn't even got myself anything from those blogshops ): Sadded, &sigh. Ah, I got to stop this. Sighsighsighs, &&btw I threw my stand-in phone in the cupboard, again. Guess what, it's 11:55pm. I'm going to go mia for th weekend.
hehe, i don't care what she says. {: I'm already prepared to be the bad person. <:

xoxomel,
If your troubles break your stride,
If you find yourself lost and all alone,
who's th first you'll confide in.?

2009-08-27T01:37:00.001+08:00

{ Whatever Major Loser. }

{What I dread the most is happening , once again, gone like th wind. D:}

Sighhhhh. Idk what to do now, gahhhhh. ><>< I cannot believe that ___________________________.! Okay crap, anyway. Once a leo, always a leo. Once a B____, always a B____. Well, he must be drugged. Haha, oh well. It's not my problem anywayyyyys, I'm not interested in him hor, J! <: Left early, didn't regret. Cause I realised I'm really needing my sleep. ): okay, th modem is playing games with me. ;o rahr, jeng jeng. Gone case, my bed's calling. Sugars silly, *laugh*. {:

xoxomel.
it's written of over her face,
but you didn't see it.
Poor thing,
My heart aches cause I know the aftermaths of you.

2009-08-26T19:26:00.006+08:00

{ Centre of her universe. }

I'm doing random quizzes at facebook, waiting for games to load. Gawdddd, dizzyspells knocking on my door again. ): I'm turning in early today, if I can. (: haha, slept late ytd and didn't managed t pull myself out of bed. I need some wake up calls please, no motivation for school. ): Gah, then class start at 8am. I woke yo at 6+,7+ then finally pull myself out at 8am. Haha, then went school alone cause Soxl was still at home. Great, I bought loads of tidbits. {: Did 3Dmax<3, then finally managed t make my empty box look more like a home. Happppppy, went tampines w clique. Gah, ate then went home {: Went out for chit chat session w love in th evening, haha. Home at about 12.30am. Whoa, great. <:

xoxomel,
you're only sorry that you got caught.

2009-08-26T00:40:00.003+08:00

{Too Lost In You.}

{As our time begins to burn.}

I can't believe I save both th last two entries in draft and put in some crap before just posting them up here a few mins ago. ;E Gee, it's 1245am now. I'm feeling a lil sick. Anyway, suddenly remember why I wanted to blog now. Wna wish those who are taking Olevel/NLevel/Class Test/Exams soon ALL THE BEST ! {: Don't worry, mel got 1o1% confidence in you all. Haha, went chit chat w Jo after school today. Went TeaDot Cafe for Tea, yummy. Then walk walk, i want my heels please. D: Idk which one t buy, gah. Met up w leftover clique and off we go to Terminal3 for popeyes! <: I like the airport, it's so peaceful and pretty. I wna work there too, fat hope. Ate then mrt back t tamp to go home! {: Whoa, tired yet I'm not asleep yet. Great, tsk. Okay, goodnights love! {:

xoxomel,
i don't want to stay any longer.

2009-08-24T19:50:00.003+08:00

{ They all fall down, like Toy Soldiers. }

{Learn how to stand up on your own feet, cause you're gna fall again soon.}

Went for movie w clique at tampines mall, watch Where Got Ghost 2.4opm. Sat beside weisan, Shelly wanted t sit in th middle. Haha, okay then show was abit dot dot. I don't like the shower part, I don't like cause I will imagine the water will turn into blood then .____. . Anyway, walk walk and decided t head home after th movie. While in th bus on th way back, brother called and told me he going for durian fried rice at tampines ): Eeeee, I was already halfway back please. Haha, went home slack watch tv. Funny happenings, quarreled w sister in th afternoon. I bought home sugar rolls in the afternoon and in the evening she was hungry. So while I was watching tv, she tried to open th plastic bag which contain th sugar rolls as quietly as possible. Sadly, she failed. I caught her but she didn't see me looking at her, she got one sugar roll and tied back the plastic bag and went into th kitchen. She tried to force the sugar roll into her mouth, haha. Not wanting t let me see her eating my food, haha. She saw me looking at her, she giggled and turned away. Then faster run into th room when she finally stuff everything into her mouth. Great, then she was all good with me after that. Epic. ._. Anyway, i forget what else happened already. Nights.

xoxomel,
noone can save you,
except yourself.

2009-08-23T19:40:00.004+08:00

{Starstruckkkk. }

{ She has already been replaced, you just didn't knew abt it.}

Goodbye Weekends,
wna know how t spend my weekends? Well, mel spent her weekend at home! Yea, goodie girl me was still not feeling well or maybe you can just call me lazy. Joke, daddy had t work and aunty was not at home. Was quite peaceful cause mommy was home for th afternoon, haha. Phew* Had dinner when dad came home, teevee-ed and slept.

xoxomel.
you'll know why,
someday. {:

2009-08-22T15:59:00.002+08:00

{ She's not alright with you. }

{Pen me your thoughts.}

It's been some time since I blogged. Well, it's 12:51am. Considered th wee hours of sunday, and it's raining heavily. Past few days was torturous for me. I fell damn sick, vomited and had no appetite for anything. Just kept drinking water and sleeping like a pig ): I'm much better now, my aunty says that it might be because I had rice for lunch, well. You might not know but it has actually been weeks since I last ate rice. I had rice for lunch then jeng jeng, I fell ill. Or was it the porridge I had downstairs with brother? Cause he also had th runs, dang. He recovered in one day and even managed t went over cousin's place t play mahjong ): Gahhhh, i was still in bed at that time please ._. Anyway, didn't go school on friday. Hah, missed out 3D max D: Sadded, someone still want t scare me saying that they handed in and left me only uh. Want die. ;x Mm, anyway. It's raining really heavily now and my dog just barked. ;o So practically, I stayed home for these three days. Sucha good girl can, haha. And daddy needs t go work tmr and aunty's having day off tmr ): That leaves brother { if he IS at home }, me and th lil devil at home tmr. Gah, I'm feeling sick yet I have t look after this brat. ._. how great, entertainment tmr? Gahhhhhh. Sian1/2.

xoxo,
I thought I Love You forever,
but forever is over.

2009-08-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

{ Like a Rag Doll. }

{Sit back, relax and enjoy as life zoom past you. }

School ended at 12plus, whoa. Went home after school, didn't accompany clique out to anywhere. Ha, reach home. First of all, sorry dearest Jon! Couldn't accompany you tho I already told you I'll be meeting youuuuu. Gah, I went over t cousin's new *wow* place at whampoo. Nice view, nice nice nice. Mahjong-ed over there, help brother played the first few matchs and lost for him. Haha, watch tv fall asleep came online. Then I help Aunt play, ha. Best can, i likeeeee. I was the ultimate winner + aunt's help. Damn shiok, under estimate me. Dang, gah. I also think my ankle is facing some problem. Cause it really hurts when I walk }: Got the how-to-describe-feeling feeling. ): Dangggg, okay. I finally finishing browsing a lil bit of th furnitures website. Dead, i'm so dead tired. D: Ohoh! Did I mention that my LG died on my during th week of my birthday? If Im not wrong it was on the 7th, gah. Now i'm using Sony Ericson, working perfectly just that stupid bluetooth won't connect and I cannot send my photos t my laptop. Unless some kind hearted people wants t lend me their usbbbb lah. &&&&&&&! My thumbdrive got freaking virus. ._. Kuku lah. ):

xoxo.
It's better not to say anything,
cause I always say the wrong things
at the wrong time.

2009-08-17T19:56:00.003+08:00

{Missing in action.}

{I made the wrong decision, now I regret. but it's just all too late ): }

Apart from some people, well. I can say that I offically mia-ed. {: Haha. I did went t school, I did went out. I'm not emo-ing at home, I even did alot of shopping recently. {: Sounds like I'm doing great, well yea I'm not gna care about what is he thinking of or why did she do that or why are they together or what she said behind my back or what he did with his friends. Yea, just leave that sack for burden behind. I'm not saying that friends are burden, in fact I'm thinking that I'm that burden. I mean, you have t listen t me nag, talk and even scold. Whoa, why do you even need this friend who doesn't really add any colours t your life? mm, I'm sorry that I'm not perfect. I don't do nice things, instead I do things that I regret. I don't make the best cookies, instead I spend my moolahs on ingredients that I don't think I'll use. I don't have friends the best shoulder to lie on instead I scold and rant to them about their mistake. I'm beginning to find myself a burden, I can't do things nicely. I'm sort of tired of myself, giving all those shytos. Sigh, wonder when is all this gna stop. I finally found out that the problems lies with me, and started w me too. How greattttt. >:
I'll try t get out of your way, <: No harm trying out things alone. I still remember those who stood by me when I was at my lowest. I'll remember those who saw me when I was invisible.
Ha, sounds like I'm gna commit suicide ;x but I'm NOT! {: Eh life's getting more and more interesting, how can I die at this point of my 'story'? Gah.

xoxo,
I really don't wna be like her ):
Sighhhhh.
Cherish, please.

2009-08-13T22:46:00.003+08:00

It's 10.46pm now, I think I'm gna turn in already. {: Early uh, anyway. Just back here t do some wishes:

Happy Birthday LiJun <:
No more sweet 16 already, now same as us 17 already. Meet you up for sentosa soon alrights (: xoxo.