It's th last straw.

From clockwise;
Gelare w brother on 150909. Delicious can, another meal out kor! <: Then Breeks w Christina on 210909, just a cup of halzunut choco drink w marshmallows( totally loved ) and then my dinner at hong kong cafe ( no photos ;x ), then yogurt w clique at Tampines1. Damn delicious, not sinful except for th whole lot of chocolate syrup I wanted. ;E And lastly, mooncakes mommy bought. I didn't expect them t taste so winey. ;o Ate th whole mooncake and yea I felt a lil high already. I ate th chocolate one ( that taste like kinder surprise, there's many other more wine types ones based on th color.} Then there's teadot cafe w Jocelyn, damn tea-y feeling. So relaxed chilling there. Then it's food fair w brother again on th 190909. The last photo was another picture from Food Fair that me and my brother loveeee alot. (: Meatball w cheese inside, shiok. (:

Sinful, but I like. I don't care, like who does ;D Ah no I didn't eat all those in one day for goodness sake. ;E I think I spend like a bomb ( sounds familar uh ) on myself, well I don't mind pampering myself w my money. {: Anyway, shall upload till here for th time being <: People shoo-ing me off already ;x xoxomel, there's nothing left to hold on, but she's grabbing t every lil hope that's there, even if those are fake hope.

Byebye Comex, Hellooooo Food fair/Games Fair. {:

The header says it all, been heading down t suntec for Comex Fair th past few days cause I work there, then now finally over. I know it's kinda late to post about th fair but I'm still gna post about it. {: Hmm, it was fun but I'm seriously regretting big time. My hands are so ruin after hours of touching th product ): Nevermindddddd, over already. Then, it's Food Fair. I went to suntec today w fbf and hell enjoyed it. <: Delicious can, but spend a bomb there. Kept investing in stuff I don't know. Nevermind, food fair made mel a happy girl. After food fair went next door, which was the Games Convention. Damn cartoon, saw cosplay people everywhere. Like super awesome. Saw girls in their ohsopretty costume. Didn't snap them cause there were just too many people taking their picture. Walk and play and took goodie bags {: Hehe, well I found some totallylame&awesome games t play there! Haha, anyway. Left suntec w a very happy stomach. Bought loads of food home too, gosh. Sinful day, but whatever. <: It's 2.38am now, i'm hungry. A more detailed post in the morning w peektures too! Heh, I saved some blogskins on my desktop but I keep delaying in changing them, dangs. Th new games that I'm trying are so wasting time. ): Yet, i'm like kinda addicted. Die, okay bye I seriously needa catch some sleep. :D

Xoxomel,
what has past,
has past.
No point wishing you could have those
memories back.

First and foremost,
Happy Birthday Dearest Cousin. {:

Alrights, update update. Short short one, been really lazy. ): I think i'm sick too, dang. D: There's chingay meeting tomorrow, hope we don't really needa do much things, i don't really wna move that much but but but 9am at lavander. .____. Shyto, like cui please. Saturday morning should be spend sleepinggggg. :/ I'm feeling so very ;o now, cause i realised I'm sucha cui person. Anywayyyy, i'm turning in already. Gotta wake up early tmr, hopefully I won't be late tomorrow. Oh! Went for SAF open house at Pasir Lebar (?) just now, so very the change of temperature. Maybe I got my fever from there, tsk. So hot yet th rooms were freezing :/ After open house, wanted meet buddy go sgh but things were complicated. Went eat Just Acia w clique at ehub. Hahaha, damn full &shiok. <: Bused to tamp interchange and then bus home. Whoa, friday night gone like that, saturday morning burnt. I still said I wanted t play basketball. ._. I feel my whole face and body warmmmmmm. >: Goodnights people, God bless me. Hehe, i did a triple sneeze. ;E Brr, hot & cold. Dangs. I'm lazy t upload all those overdue photos in facebook, I gave up uploading them t blogger cause they always got missing halfway through th post. Tsk! Goodnights, for real. Hurhur, bless me again. Idk why I keep sneezing when I'm gna end th post. :/

xoxomel,
I crashed,
and I'm on my own tonight.
Or maybe for the rest of my life.

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<a href="http://www.formspring.me/xoxomello">http://www.formspring.me/xoxomello</a> Archives June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010	{ Second Thoughts. } {Make someone happy, you will feel good too.} It's been some timeeee, not this again :x Well, was busying w some stuff lately. Late night sleeps and early wake up calls, ahyo. Nevermind, it's all worth it. {: Haha, see ! Mel's becoming optimistic ! :D Cannot so negative, life will cut short one. :x Whatthehellmel. So, normal routine yesterday and then went Dhoby Ghaut get brownies♥ and milk tea♥ and walk round there since it's some time since I went window shopping. Bought already then went Novena and cabbed over t cousin's place. Hurhur, she having O level this year so went and gave her brownie♥ to destress and add oil for her. Everytime also burn midnight oil, of cause need help her replenish. (: Relax at her penthouse, damn shiok. Under th night sky w sucha beautiful scenery, really really so 'ahhhhhh..' feel. I'm beginning t think of this as a crap post. Dangs, anyway. Stayover at their place, th cabby uncle got so much confidence that he knew he was going th right place but in th end he drop me at th wrong condo ._. but he's sucha nice cabby ! <: okay, watch fann wong and christopher lee (?)'s wedding on tv. Didn't find it as nice as th other celebrity wedding. Maybe they go different theme that's why but their photoshoot was so so sweet please. Like can melt one, haha. Slept at 2plus, didn't managed t accompany cousin t burn midnight oil D: Jiayouuuuuus alrights, hehe. Woke up in th early afternoon th next day, house was empty. Aunt was doing housework. Needa go collect pay so aunt told me t check th address, some wu lu place at paya lebar. Wahliew, sucha humid day. I think th soles of my pumps are on fire. ): Walked here and there, wanted t cab there but aunt said that I'm crazy cause th place is just 5mins walk from where we were. :E Dangs, then so in a rush can. Like traveled t many many places today, you see. From Woodlands to Somerset to Dhoby Ghaut to Novena/Boonkeng to Paya Lebar to Aljunied to City Hall to Admiralty to ~~Bishan~~Yishun. YOU SEE, Alot of places hor. Then while rushing for training melt called and told me t U-turn ): No training this week, sigh. As I predicted, gah. Nevermind next week I'm also not in Singapore so can't go training also. ): Sigh, nevermind. So instead of training, I went for retail and sinfood therapy. Alone, I quite enjoy uh. Spend and spend like money is free flow. I just kept trying and choosing and buying and press press press. Dangs, nevermindddd. All my 血汗钱, all worth it. but but but , sigh. :/ Feel so restless, I had hong kong cafe(!) alone somemore. Hehe, th guy that sees me with my haojiemeis eating there everytime must have thought that I suffer heartbreak then go there have a feast cause I kept looking outside (at th scenery) then he kept walking past check my order. Haha, shopped and spend a bomb in cotton on, hehe. So shiok , I'm beginning t like solo-ing. :x So that's about it, just got home and wna sleep early. My dizzy spells are coming back ): Goodnights, sucha wordy post. Also nobody will read :x xoxomel, you will never know if you would succeed at th 1o1th try, if you give up after your 100th failure. Jiayous.♥ Wednesday, September 30, 2009 @ 9:40 PM ♥ { You gave us fakehope. } You're just an illusion I have in my heart. Ayeayeaye, disappointments once again. Shouldn't have itchy hands and figure it out, shouldn't have played that stupid joke, shouldn't have been so naive to believe it all again. Ayeayeaye, nevermind. {: Well, it's 2.37am now and I'm on Msn, Facebook, blogger, country story, 3D max and a few blogshops open. :/ How great, really that naive to be looking at it every min t see if you're back. Tsk. xoxomello, if there's ever an if, th if would have already happened. There's no going back for us, cause th misunderstanding between us could never be solve. :/ Thursday, September 24, 2009 @ 5:26 PM ♥ { Sinful.} I miss th past. { Turn back th hands of time,I think things will still turn out like that. } These few days, have feel feeling so not right. I'm not sure, but my temper ain't nice and I'm beginning t treat myself and my body so wrong. Sleeping late and waking up in th afternoon really spoils it all. Imagine that you're having holiday yet when you wake up, half your holiday is over. ): Waking up hoping it'll be a nice day and th next thing you know, someone just told you that you're useless. It feels like shit, seriously. I rather go back t sugar dreams than getting all these stuff when I wake up. Well, I got proofs that I've been enjoying life and treating myself t many many good food <: Hehe. Let th photo do th talking, From clockwise; Gelare w brother on 150909. Delicious can, another meal out kor! <: Then Breeks w Christina on 210909, just a cup of halzunut choco drink w marshmallows( totally loved ) and then my dinner at hong kong cafe ( no photos ;x ), then yogurt w clique at Tampines1. Damn delicious, not sinful except for th whole lot of chocolate syrup I wanted. ;E And lastly, mooncakes mommy bought. I didn't expect them t taste so winey. ;o Ate th whole mooncake and yea I felt a lil high already. I ate th chocolate one ( that taste like kinder surprise, there's many other more wine types ones based on th color.} Then there's teadot cafe w Jocelyn, damn tea-y feeling. So relaxed chilling there. Then it's food fair w brother again on th 190909. The last photo was another picture from Food Fair that me and my brother loveeee alot. (: Meatball w cheese inside, shiok. (: Sinful, but I like. I don't care, like who does ;D Ah no I didn't eat all those in one day for goodness sake. ;E I think I spend like a bomb ( sounds familar uh ) on myself, well I don't mind pampering myself w my money. {: Anyway, shall upload till here for th time being <: People shoo-ing me off already ;x xoxomel, there's nothing left to hold on, but she's grabbing t every lil hope that's there, even if those are fake hope. Monday, September 21, 2009 @ 11:47 PM ♥ Selamat Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya! Selamat Hari Raya! Just a video I'm addicted to for the time being. {: It stuck idk why in my mind, damn cute too. Well, togetherness. Sigh, I miss th girls and our jalan raya days. :E Anyway, it's 20:09 on 20-09 in 2009! Damn coool, was on the way home from yishun when I remembered. {: I spend my today at home, thinking and making plans for my holiday {: My calander seems so pathetic, nah you shouldn't guess cause I won't tell <: Well today! I was just doing blogskins and trying them on my blogs, looks weird. So I guess I'm changing them soon, ha. Have new games t play which makes me sleep later i th night ): I'm having so many addictions now, like damn sad. }: I'm feeling so tired tho I slept till th sun was high high highhhhh up. Ohya, I forgot about some stuff which I was suppose t post but it's over already so I guess it should be alright. I don't stand anything in their heart too, so whatever. {: Heh, mel is a v happy girl cause I dreamt of so many cute lil dreams(which got cut off but many lil things D: ) but it was totally awesome cause this makes me a weeny bit happier tho I'm already happy. ( okay, what crap again.) Haha, i'm gna try turning in early today. <: Cause Shelly got plans for us tmr, i needa wake up earlier than today. Tsk, yet again today it was th same. xoxomello, this is th last straw, it will never be th same. Sunday, September 20, 2009 @ 8:09 PM ♥ { Crying over spilled milk. } Byebye Comex, Hellooooo Food fair/Games Fair. {: The header says it all, been heading down t suntec for Comex Fair th past few days cause I work there, then now finally over. I know it's kinda late to post about th fair but I'm still gna post about it. {: Hmm, it was fun but I'm seriously regretting big time. My hands are so ruin after hours of touching th product ): Nevermindddddd, over already. Then, it's Food Fair. I went to suntec today w fbf and hell enjoyed it. <: Delicious can, but spend a bomb there. Kept investing in stuff I don't know. Nevermind, food fair made mel a happy girl. After food fair went next door, which was the Games Convention. Damn cartoon, saw cosplay people everywhere. Like super awesome. Saw girls in their ohsopretty costume. Didn't snap them cause there were just too many people taking their picture. Walk and play and took goodie bags {: Hehe, well I found some totallylame&awesome games t play there! Haha, anyway. Left suntec w a very happy stomach. Bought loads of food home too, gosh. Sinful day, but whatever. <: It's 2.38am now, i'm hungry. A more detailed post in the morning w peektures too! Heh, I saved some blogskins on my desktop but I keep delaying in changing them, dangs. Th new games that I'm trying are so wasting time. ): Yet, i'm like kinda addicted. Die, okay bye I seriously needa catch some sleep. :D Xoxomel, what has past, has past. No point wishing you could have those memories back. Saturday, September 19, 2009 @ 11:49 PM ♥ { Killing me with those spoken words. } {If love could be put together that easily. } I'm losing faith, I losing everything. Am I ? I just really needa good rest, it's 1am now. Great. Goodnights, I'm sick. I wna have a good meal. I wna enjoy, but seems like I can't. I told many that we should enjoy life while we can, but I don't think I'm setting a good example. Fmylife. ): I think I take your words too seriously, I don't understand why you can do what you like but yet I can't. It's like a voodoo cursed, well cursed you. I had enough of being your voodoo doll, it's not because you think I've changed, it's because I never had a chance t be me when there was you. Time for some brain cracking lolmelissolame time. {: N a i t i s t m l, t n p s a w im t l i. I ko s ttm, f w h b d y e c ? N, n e o. S i d t g u s, r f y s b s . A l t m u b b. Bye love, i need focus. ): like seriously. Friday, September 18, 2009 @ 12:59 AM ♥ { She paid a huge price for this, } but he never did understand, did he? well, i successfully mia from one part of th world during th weekends cause I was just busying w IT FAIR. Yea I work my heart out during th fair, saw many many familar faces. Met new people, saw new faces but I guess it's all a once in a lifetime thingy t be like this . I kinda miss working there, sigh. Anyway, working there was extremely tiring but at the same time I enjoy. Th only thing I don't like is that I have t do alot of work before I can finally get my pay. Heard that we still have t go down paya lebar t get th pay ._. 4 days just past like this, back to school. :E Anyway, i teared abit when I was watching th show on youtube. Dang sad, so touching. ): xoxo, for something called L♥ve, it's priceless. Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 9:58 PM ♥ { Devastated. } (She will never ever trust like how she used to.) Okay, contrasting w my title. I'm laughing out loud at how Show Luo speaks in english. HAHAHAHA. Enough of th hahaha-ing but cannot tahan, damn funnehhhh please. <: Alrightttts, I just came home. Was actually out the whole day. about 8am to 11pm. Dead tired cause I wore pumps that gives me blister ): Anyway, went for th Chingay meet up. Dang, went t th old people association. Cab t th new one which is so damn near Lavander. Wasted our bus strips and cab fare. Well, met new people. Sheena, she also another one of us. Cause she also went t the old head quarter, haha. Stupid cab driver, hey if we know how t go th th new headquarter, why must ask you how t go? Brush up your english please. {: Dressed up, had loads of fun. Hehe, damn shy can. >< After th meeting, went down t novena's square2. Feel so dumb there please, shopped myself while waiting for tasha. <: Mixed feelings, I wna go there again. Cause I didn't really shop finish novena, hehe. Maybe tomorrow go there do my shopping and at same time see bff play {: Kill two birds with one stone, haha. Anyway, dead tired. ): I feel v sour, gahhhhhh. xoxomel, get back on your feet and think of me, I'll pull you out of black hole. Who's gna do that for me? :/ Sunday, September 6, 2009 @ 12:16 AM ♥ { Love via Express Mail.} First and foremost, Happy Birthday Dearest Cousin. {: Alrights, update update. Short short one, been really lazy. ): I think i'm sick too, dang. D: There's chingay meeting tomorrow, hope we don't really needa do much things, i don't really wna move that much but but but 9am at lavander. .____. Shyto, like cui please. Saturday morning should be spend sleepinggggg. :/ I'm feeling so very ;o now, cause i realised I'm sucha cui person. Anywayyyy, i'm turning in already. Gotta wake up early tmr, hopefully I won't be late tomorrow. Oh! Went for SAF open house at Pasir Lebar (?) just now, so very the change of temperature. Maybe I got my fever from there, tsk. So hot yet th rooms were freezing :/ After open house, wanted meet buddy go sgh but things were complicated. Went eat Just Acia w clique at ehub. Hahaha, damn full &shiok. <: Bused to tamp interchange and then bus home. Whoa, friday night gone like that, saturday morning burnt. I still said I wanted t play basketball. ._. I feel my whole face and body warmmmmmm. >: Goodnights people, God bless me. Hehe, i did a triple sneeze. ;E Brr, hot & cold. Dangs. I'm lazy t upload all those overdue photos in facebook, I gave up uploading them t blogger cause they always got missing halfway through th post. Tsk! Goodnights, for real. Hurhur, bless me again. Idk why I keep sneezing when I'm gna end th post. :/ xoxomel, I crashed, and I'm on my own tonight. Or maybe for the rest of my life. Friday, September 4, 2009 @ 11:10 PM ♥ { Down. } {I just needa find myself again, cause this life ain't easy.} I can't believe I spend half my day in school blogshopping, only making myself sadder and more depressed ): Well, already moved on th 2nd storey yet I'm stuck on th first. Great, now I pulled another victim t join me in my shopping craze <: None other then Jia Li Chan, haha. We already stopped doing what we suppose t do liek hours ago when class is going t end in a few mins time (2mins to be precise.) Great, I'm hungry ;E Okay, time t go homeeee <: Bye! //Edited. I finally reached home, after school went tampines1 w clique. Walk awhile then shelly &Enqi went home. Left w Justerinini and weisan, ahyo. Ate and i walked them t their bus-stop/bus interchange, then I went t th mrt station t wait for chrisy. Trained down t Payar Lebra t meet up YongFamily, then went for dinner and then t visit Hannah& Joash. Damn cute kids, sadly they're leaving Singapore on friday ): Went home and now I'm home ! {: Took many many photos, uploading them soon <: Still uploading Marina Barrage photos t facebook. Ugh, taking v long. ): xoxomel, it's like moving mountains, to really understand you. Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 4:21 PM ♥ { Buts. } {Cause it's hard t just can't let go of what she have.} Oh, it's September already. Time really flies, tsk. Sudden urge t run through my playlist and play 'wake me up when September ends'. :/ Aye, wanted t do some shopping today alone but didn't manage to. Wanted t watch movie but th rain spoils it all. Gah, stayed home till dinner time. Ate and went out, well. Past few days been in th rain and going out in the evening. :/ Guess I'm sick, again. Ha, met chris for 'dinner'. Walked around, wanted t get some lil things from here and there. Ohgosh, shopped and talked and ate. Finally got t have my Gelare <: Haha, so at least I did made my day happier. Home and ate favourite again, {: Made my day x2, but but but saw some stuff which we shouldnt. Dangs please. This is how I wasted my 'free day'. ): Not really that saddening I guess. Ha, Mel-issa with the Silent dash. :E It's late, I'm halfway (or maybe just 1/4) uploading all th Marina Barrage photos in facebook. Gosh, Idk why I have that feeling inside of me. Do I bear grudges ? I just hope your Halo drop down and strangle you or maybe just make you realised how much damaged/ hurt you've done to people. ;o Nah, don't want so evil. {: xoxomel, I can't help feeling so helpless. :/ 12:55 AM ♥ { Stronger,not. } { She tries screaming but nothing comes out. } 好累好累, my head's spinning. I don't really know what t do when I know all th happenings, i don't like being so useless and helpless. I know we can't do anything cause it is also HIS life but you don't expect me t sit there and enjy life while he's suffering there. I mean, for God's sake he's my friend. ._. Dang. 好累, so tired. I'm going t bed already, nights. xoxomel, for the best of both world, I'm still next to never. Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 12:17 AM ♥