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Credits Layout: Stairway Mannequin Icon: TyrannosaurusTax		Th Girl next Door. I am Melissa swl, I don't believe that typing craps here will make you understand me. I'm complicated but I like simplicity. Colours and delicious bites are loved, Friends &Family keeps me going. Seventeen, older every 6august.Studying in Tampines ITE year 1, SD FTD091C rocks your socks. Likes being random, photography and bridal shots. Pretty things catch my eyes, I'm not good in expressing. Well, it sucks t be me.
My Faith Is Shaking.
<a href="http://www.formspring.me/xoxomello">http://www.formspring.me/xoxomello</a> Archives June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010	I read my post for the previous days and realised that I've been posting everyday but I kept saying that I haven't been updating the blog. ._. Friday, November 28, 2008 @ 8:07 AM ♥ I still remember everything. This is for my Wrs4nt8/2008. :) I still have those memories inside of me, they wil forever be with me. (: How bout you? I remembered all those happenings, i'll never forget them. Those times we spend in class, those times we got caught for doing the wrong things, those times we joke and laugh. Those criticism we had and those fond memories we all shared. It's been two months since we graduated and I don't think we really had a class meet up in these two month. I mean, a real one. Where everyone is invited and regradless of who comes, we have fun and enjoyed. ): Is there really one where everyone is really invited? I know there will sure be some party poopers but who cares? We have been together for 4years in a row, we're (I think) the only class that stayed together for 4years straight. There are surely conflicts everywhere but let's just put that aside. Imy people okay, love shall make the world go round :/ Just to let you know :D Kokway &Melissa will be planning a Christmas Get-Together for the class, it's also a Exchange present day! Msges have been sent out by the DarkHorse ;X Any ideas please contribute! (: There is also a list of blacklisters ah. Wednesday, November 26, 2008 @ 12:07 PM ♥ Been so long since I posted ! ): Stayed over at cousin's place when she was in BeiJing, the house seems so weird without her. D: Imy la girl. :D Mahjong craze over their house, but sadly lady luck's not w me! Super tired cos we played whole day and Idk why I woke up early th next day automatically.Blog again some days later, I'm tired and facebook is awesome ;D Xoxo my friend, You have started t fade away, but somehow the littlest things can bring you back, and then it's all coming back t me. Tuesday, November 25, 2008 @ 10:33 PM ♥ FAMILY. Shouldn' it be FatherAndMotherILoveYou ? There no perfect family/relationship and lastly friendship. Every ship has t face an iceberg when it's sailing. The most important thing is to Face it and not run away from it. ): Rahhhhh. 明明就是忘记了，干吗会突然想起呢？为什莫要这样对我。我不是你的洋娃娃，不管你有没有读这个，我想要跟你说你。I was never your doll, never once was. ): Imy people. Something they take and put away whenever they feel like. So, it depends on your mood uh? Used and tired. Xoxo my friend, why does it hurt when you turn your back on me? why mans, I seriously don't know why. Girl, I dreamt of them too. (: but some sucker woke me up, for the same routine again. ): Monday, November 24, 2008 @ 9:33 PM ♥ Alright ;D They are currently having their leisure meeting in the staff lounge, and I'm alone in the office. ): I don't know what's the problem but I'm having th runs. My eyes are closing and the cookies at Justina's desk are yummy :D The people in Kindy are really friendly and ncie and they just laugh out loud when they feel like :D Sadly, the kids are more of the keep-to-yourself type. ): They keep referring me as the new Justina. Which I really was not used to. ): Even the kiddos stop by to say hello to Miss Justina. Laughs* They paused for awhile when they don't see their Justina ;D Some are really nice enough t talk t me and ask me where is miss justina, they go Awwwwwww when they found out that Justina is sick/on MC. Where can you get such lovely kids? :D Anyway, I'm so in love with the keyboard, i keep deleting my sentence and typing them out again and again cos i so likeeee this keyboard ;D I'm gna pester daddy for one like this. No, wait. I'm gna pester daddy for my own laptop! (: That's so much easier. I have so much time to blog, but I seriously have no idea of what to blog ;D I just loveeee this keyboard ;D Bye peeps. ): Thursday, November 20, 2008 @ 2:55 PM ♥ Overseas kids = very very handsome/chio kids. :D Hola peeps, currently at Kindy office. (: Super fun job but imagine a Singaporean working in a not singapore-type kinda school. It's kind of stressful for me because in this whole office, I think I'm the only one that talks 'like-that'. Trying my best to understand them and telling the right message to the right people. Omg man, plus I have to go around the kindy block to look for classes to pass message to them. Hopefully, I won't get lost! ): Been in the Kindergarten block very often these days and they are so so cute. You see, they are asked to come infront of the office and raise their balloons (One per class) to take a photo for their yearbook/newsletter. And when the principal }also the one taking the photo{ counts down, the kids will go CHESEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE for a very long time and then laugh out loud :D Cute right ! And they are super funny, they drew their wishes on the balloon and I saw one wish that goes: I wish that I can be a mermaid so that I can swim with the dolphins and hamsters. ._. hamsters underwater? These balloons will be sent to Marina Bay today at 4pm and I'm the one who had to squeeze and push/deflate the balloon. D: Very unglam indeed. Other then that, mostly answering calls, running about school. (: Gosh, it's their break now and they are lining up and singing christmas carols already. Super adorable, but sadly cannot pinch their cheeks. They cry = we byebye! ): Currently having nothing to do, i don't mind doing this for the rest of my work-days in OFS :D Xoxo my friend, You will get a taste of your own medicine some day. I'll remember how you treated me, not your disposable doll. Wednesday, November 19, 2008 @ 12:13 PM ♥ Time Check: 1013pm Currently: Trying to be nice to my mic ;D Have you ever wanted to stay on th ride for as long as you want, and get all those dizzy spells. Cause you know, that's th only way to forget about everything. Woowee, time flies when you're having fun. Been asked to try the online game, super fun. And I don't want to tell you all what this game is cos it lags when more and more people gets on ;D Super cool, but awwwww. I'm having this very irritating cough and it hurts so so bad whenever I try out. ): I'm gna continue later! Now, I'm not gna let this blog dieeee cos I found a new past time! (: Anyway, today is sucha weird day. It's like a friendship day or what, cos we managed to ask a few of our 'new' friends out for lunch, but the stupid weather ruin it all. ): Maybe tomorrow! Hiakhiak, I just just blogshoped and bookmarked many many blogshops! (: So that next time, I can go back and review on them! (: Yayness. I'm still sick, so I'm gna go sleep already! :D Xoxo my friend, Tell me the truth cos I won't kill. I'll just lie down and wish it all away. Monday, November 17, 2008 @ 10:12 PM ♥ Time Check: 0717pm I'm a good girl today, Friendster is such a pain in my (and maybe your) head. ): My friends are missing and what's friendster without friends? I had troubles going into friendster from the day before yesterday to maybe today morning. And finally when friendster was done, I just found out that my friends are deleted from my friendster. How great, lazy to do anything now. &&my brother&sister are also having cough now, (: Such a sadist. Oh welllll. Bye, for now. Xoxo my friend, everyone hides behind they own individual mask. Some might take it off, but some just continue to pretend. Sunday, November 16, 2008 @ 6:44 PM ♥ Time check: ---- I've been at this post for a long long time ;D } Nap time was included!} Gosh, this time I'm really right. I really cannot predict what will happen later, Mel is down with serious headaches, bad cold and my voice is super sexy. ): So sway, I thought of joining my brother for basketball and when I woke up, I feel so weak. My leg were shaky, my world's spinning round and round. ): I think I'm gna go lie down, i'm beginning to get those dizzy spells and my eyes are getting watery. ): What an uncool day for me, everybody left the house so I'm alone at home. ): I'm eating porridge for my breakfast, lunch and maybe even for dinner. I'm lazy to cook &reheating is just so simple. (: Xoxo my friend, you still don't understand how I feel, don't you? Sometimes, have you ever wonder that all those were just Your point of view, Your thinking, Your assumptions? Saturday, November 15, 2008 @ 2:42 PM ♥ Bestfriends forever (?) &when I grow up. I changed my mind about not blogging forever. Life's so so dull, I've been complaining alot uh? Well, let's get a topic to talk about ;D As titled, I want to talk about BFFs. It might be a very sensitive topic to talk about plus there's been some friendship problem(s) going on. ): Bestfriend forever. Whoa, I was planning to write a long long longggg post about bbf but now that I'm staring at the computer screen for the pass 10mins. It's obvious that my mind is in a blank. &my eyes are tearing up, I've caught the flu buggggg D: Ohhhh, Bestfriend forever. }In my growing up days, I have made some really good friends and lose some true friends too. Sometimes, I regretted my actions and sometimes, I'm glad that I'm not friends with you. Well, I've started to think far. Questions like; What happens when I get my results, what will I do when I grow up, ~~what will happen if my heart says that he's the one,~~ what will I do if I get fat( Laugh out loud) and ~~when will I get married~~ ( Double laughoutloud.) How can I survive this cruel reality, who will I depend on when Touch wood my parents pass on. So far, maybe too far, but thinking about all these things really give me many many manyyyy wake up calls. I'm saving up and planning for my future, time is running out. There's so many things I wna do, but time seems to be running out. What if one day I go berserk and jump down the building? Life is so unpredictable, one second you're fine but you might choke on a fishball and die the next minute. It's funny how you have be close with someone and the next not know them at all. Very hard to predict what's gna happen. ): I better cherish what I have now, before it's too late. Oh ya, I just got reminded about my BFFs topic ;x I think I'm not suitable to have BFFs at all. I admit that maybe, I get jealous easily, maybe I think on your behalf too much, maybe it was becos of the past that drew us apart. ): Bestfriends are suppose to be there for you even if you don't need them, they understand you and know how you really feels, inside. Bestfriends knows that you are not alright when you say you are and bestfriends don't keep secrets from you. Bestfriends are suppose to care and put themself in your shoes. Bestfriends complete each other's sentenses and bestfriends don't pretend. Bestfriends can cry on each other shoulders and talk about anything under the sun, Bestfriends gossip and share secrets.Bestfriends makes promises which they can fulfill, bestfriends stand up for each other. Bestfriends supports you when you fall, bestfriends are there t pull you up. Bestfriends are there to splash a bucket of cold wather on you when you're late for class, Bestfriends are there when you're stuck outside your door. Bestfriends know how to forgive and forget, bestfriends don't gives each other cold shoulders and bestfriends won't stay angry at each other for a long period of time. Bestfriend don't lie to each other and bestfriend are true. Are you a bestfriend? There are many type of Bestfriends in my dictionary, are you those who last one day? One year or even one month ? Maybe you are lucky to have one bestfriend who last forever, maybe you are a bestfriend who can only last one day. Maybe you're a bestfriend who likes to stick with other people's bestfriend to know more, maybe. but it's all none of my business. Cause I don't think I've got any bffs anymore. Maybe you're gna shake your head and go tsk tsk tsk but I don't really care anymore, I'm so lazy to go bother so much. I just hope that life still goes on and my mask don't drop halfway in life. ): / (: I can't decide. You gotta start cherishing me before I say Goodbye t you. (: This somehow sounds like my 'last letter' t you all huh? Relax, I'm not so silly t do silly stuff. I just read my post and I'm still thinking of whether to click publish post of just a save now. /: In life, we have to make decisions that we will regret. I hate making decisions. Xoxo my friend, I'll live my life as it is and just sit back and watch life goes by like a movie. You no longer matters to me already, I will still be the same, w or w/o you. Life goes on. It makes no difference, cos I can see what's going on. Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 6:55 PM ♥ Passion? Time Check: 1047pm Currently: Back into DLCH ;D Going to bed soon. D: I'm bored and tho I already have a job, I'm going around asking for vacancies. Sometimes, I ask because I remembered that I have a friend who is jobless but- most of the time, I'm looking for a job that gives me extra cash. So, I went online and saw this person's pm. He's hiring ;D So, I asked him if there's vacancy and all those work-related stuff. Well, this job seems easy. Everything was going well till he asked me this question, I didn't know how to answer it at all, then I started to ask myself the same question, but no answer at all. Well, just to let anybody who is reading to know, he asked me : What is your Passion for Fashion? I was seriously dumbfounded and didn't know how the hell to explain it at all. Then, it lead me t Volleyball, the long-time-haven't-play sports I really loved. And if there's any Volleyballer reading this, what's your Passion for Volleyball? Then, I put a be right back for my msn, paused my music and stop doing everything I was doing and kept thinking of an answer. Sadly, I didn't managed to think of one so I anyhow shoot one answer, kinda regretted what I just said. D: Ohhhhh well, back to topic. I was actually 'selected' for that job but the turn off was that I have to travel all the way to Downtown East to meet some guy ;D Omg, scary la deh. Should I or should I not? I don't like to turn away all these but seems quite hard to earn moolahhhhh D; My moolah supply is running out, I need cash. D; And I'm still waiting for my Canvas, and maybe a patrick hoodie and more workwear. The one hour shopping spree w the girls was quite fun ;D When we didn't see Cotton On but entered Cotton on Body. I don't know what shit I'm talking about-. Life's been so shitty for me, I miss my past. Sorry for the so messy post, I'm always jumping from here to there. ;D Ohhhh dear, the world is so so small ;D Flashback of you are all coming back, but why now? I missed you like shit when you left, and now you're coming back like nothing happened? Yes, maybe it's my fault. Maybe I was just too self-centred, push all the blame to me yo. I don't mind, it's always been like this. Shall have a super long post today, I don't feel like posting tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow and forever. Xoxo my friend, I would hold hands w you and we shall sit on swing and look at the sun set. ♥ Time now; 1108pm. Currently; Eye lids are closing, pictures of you. D: Thursday, November 13, 2008 @ 10:23 PM ♥ Almost ONE MONTH since I started work :D Ohhhhh dear, life been so same for me for the past one month. Except for some changes on some days, I've been having the work-eat-home-eat-sleep-eat-work-eat-sleep-eat }And this thing goes on till December{ Omg, so no-life already! Work is getting more and more boring, and the worst part is we have to work and try not to talk AT ALL. Wth, you think MissChatterbox here can do it? Like no talk = fall asleep anytime. I'm turning in. Goodnights people :D Xoxo my friend, Sometimes, it's becos of you that all these are happening. Tuesday, November 11, 2008 @ 9:49 PM ♥ I think that there's a big big misunderstanding going on and I'm not sure if I'm in it. So omfg troublesome and I hate to be the cause of it. I shall explain it once and for all. :D If you think that you disagree w/ what I say, you can jollywell leaveeeee and don't come back :D It's all based on my personality, my point of view. ;D 1) Girl think alot when they are free. This is definitely true, girls are girls. And when we keep silent, it does not mean that we don't know what is going. Girls are not dumb okay, we just don't want to voice out. It's normal for girls to ponder on many things and extra normal for girls to think extra much for someone that is dear to her. Guys won't understand how far a girl can go/think. 2) Girls don't like to wait. This is for guys AND girlfriends. Personally, I don't like to wait for others for a long time and this is really serious when I'm meeting someone/body for lunch/dinner/breakfast. Mel is seriously pissed when she is hungry and needs to wait for a long time before she gets food. Hungry mel = angry mel :D 3) I can't think of any more for the time being. And I have to clear up some mess she just made. D: Won't be updating till monday, going for the girl's chalet. I don't know what to do already D: Nevermind, I've got many many friends to make me happy okay. :DDDDD Anyway, idk what special day it was yesterday but I was super busy and didn't even have the time to think of those unhappy things :D Well, really enjoyed and missed all those days okay? Mr A, imu okay? Hopefully you can move house earlier then I can see you everyday! :D Omg, what am I talking about? ;x Highness!~ Xoxo my friend, I tried to pretend to be God, His job is really tough. I'm trying to be both Happy inside out, My job ain't easy. I miss you. ;D Friday, November 7, 2008 @ 9:48 PM ♥ Moody. D: My second dog died already. One day one, I don't think I'm able to cope with it. Give me such a heartache to see snowy searching high low for her puppies, it like a mother losing her son/daughter. So heart breaking okay. D: Anyway, my job is getting more and more tiring. Maybe it's just me being so lazy. :D Climbing up the 'hills' and stairs, kids/high school students brushing their way through and they stares that can kill. However, there's always some really fun and enjoyable times working with my new clique. Looking at funny people and lil children play catching really reminds me of my childhood days :D Ohhhhh, their dressing are also super stylomilo. (: Caught up with the girls today, really laugh my ass off. I enjoyed today day at work, but my mood is really so up down. And I don't know what day is it today but I'm having mixed feelings! Omfg, it's like I'm smiling and thinking of all those unhappy things manx. D: Mixed feelings are soooooo hated by me! Xoxo my friends and love ones, sometimes it's better to let go. Holding on to something that doesn't belongs to you, will only make both part unhappy. Thursday, November 6, 2008 @ 1:36 PM ♥ I don't want my blog to rot. D: Didn't stick to the same routine today, decided to alight at Yishun to take a look at their new extension. My brother said that it's opened already, and there are many many things there but. What the hell, it wasn't even half filled. I had the craving for Honey milk tea but I couldn't find their sweet talk, so I left for home. Didn't get anything there, Northpoint shops are still closed for idk what reason. My life is so dull D: Xoxo my friend, I'll remember what you did to me, regardless good or bad :D It's call memories yea? Wednesday, November 5, 2008 @ 5:15 PM ♥ Haven't been blogging so frequently, well. Anyway, I'm busy with many things lately. Been trying to fall asleep on time, been trying to forget many many ~~unhappy~~ things. Rahhhhs, so fedup with many many things. The same routine everyday for the past 2weeks already. I'm getting use to this working life and no, I'm not used to sleeping so early. Thanks for the memories. Xoxo my friend, Shut me up straight in my face. There's this urge, please don't stop. Tuesday, November 4, 2008 @ 9:33 PM ♥ RULE #1 - People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. RULE #2 - Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people. Tagged by: Amira; Darl. 1. Do you have secrets? - duh, who don't? 2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you? - no, maybe, yes. 3. Do you enjoy going to school? - Quite, no, yes. 4. What would you do with a billion dollars? - Hm. Impossible to list it all out. 5. Will you fall in love with your best friend? - Why not. 6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? - Being loved by someone ;D 7. List out your 15 favourite songs: - Too lazy and too many to list. 8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? - See how much in love I am with him, Sigh. D: 9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy? - Yes, the littlest actions done by him makes me jump like a kiddo that just received a lollipop. 10. What makes you angry? - Ask around, i get angry once in a blue blue moon. 11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time? - I wouldn't want to imagine. (: 12. Who is currently the most important people to you? - Family,Friends. 13. What is the most important thing in life? - The most important thing in my life is myself, my life. 14. Single or attached? With who? - Single and bored of it D: 15. What is your favourite colour? - I like every colour that existed. 16. Would you give all in a relationship? - Maybe. Most likely. (: 17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick? - I would pick ... both can ? ;D 18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done? - I would forgive but it's really hard to forget. 19. What do you want to tell the someone you like? - heh. Xoxo la darling. ;D 20. 5 people I have tagged: -Christina, Alan(thegenerous), Kethlyn,Enqi. I anyhow hamtam a few names I see on my tagbox ;X I know not yet 5 but lazy la. Anyway, mel still love you all okay ;D xoxo. I've started to take back my love. Monday, November 3, 2008 @ 8:42 PM ♥ I'm dead tired, a really busy day. Super moodless too, many things just happen. Thanks girl for telling me tho you didn't wish to make me go Rahhhhhhhhh. Thanks and I'm alright. ;D Nothing's gonna spoil my day. I will live on and carry that smile where ever I go, but just not today ): 12:41 PM ♥ Fly awayyyyyy. Mummy's away again, although she just came back on Friday evening. She left for Korea already early in the morning. She came back from BeiJing and she bought many many funny funny items home. Like the "bobo toy" that pees out cold water when you pour hot water on it. And that stretchable ball that baobao is afraid of. Anyway, she'll be back on the day I leaving for chalet! ): 8:26 AM ♥ High School Musicallllll3. ;D I just came back from the cinema a few minutes ago and I made it a point that I MUST blog about the show when I come back. Cos I will forget it after awhile! /: It was really nice and some part were quite funneh. Like the part Gabriella stood up in the middle of the match while everyone in the crowd hides under the "cardboard" thingy. And troy singing and playing basketball at the same time, it's kinda cool and the songs are more erm, slow jazz? Idk, but i like some of it ;D Watching HSM3 makes me ~~hate~~ remember my school more. D: Why we don't have prom! I mean, maybe a graduating dinner? Gosh, but Graduation Day was really precious to me. I want another get-together day with the class! All the memories should not be keep via photos albums, it should always remain in our heart. Sunday, November 2, 2008 @ 6:23 PM ♥ PAYDAYYYY :D Like offically. Well, it's starting to become a every weekday routine for me. Work-home-work-home. Unless I'm meeting people for dinner, it's always been the same. Even though we have dinner, after that it's still the same place we go to :Home. Being at home is not a bad thing, unless (for me.) it's an empty home. I dread being at home, there's nobody to talk to. I'm tired of chasing already, I think I'm gna let you just run, away from me. It's gna be that girl's birthday already, I'm still deciding la. Omg, irritating. There's a bunch of people (about 4-6) playing some ~~songka~~ songs. D: So scary,it's already a few hours already. They not tired uh. Come back later ;D Byebye. Saturday, November 1, 2008 @ 1:46 PM ♥