It's th last straw.

Credits Layout: Stairway Mannequin Icon: TyrannosaurusTax		Th Girl next Door. I am Melissa swl, I don't believe that typing craps here will make you understand me. I'm complicated but I like simplicity. Colours and delicious bites are loved, Friends &Family keeps me going. Seventeen, older every 6august.Studying in Tampines ITE year 1, SD FTD091C rocks your socks. Likes being random, photography and bridal shots. Pretty things catch my eyes, I'm not good in expressing. Well, it sucks t be me.
My Faith Is Shaking.
<a href="http://www.formspring.me/xoxomello">http://www.formspring.me/xoxomello</a> Archives June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010	Haven't been posting in my blogs for quite sometime already. Maybe is because of my studies ? Been studying these few days and I'm not satisfied w my results. Phrase 2 of Prelim is starting on the 18August which is in about 2weeks time! Teachers are starting to panic as th day(s) draw nearer and nearer, I can see they care but their sarcasms are really mean. And FYI, I don't like to be laughed at. I know they are worried of our results but not to an extend of insulting just because he/she didn't do th thing that you want right ? Aye, for me I think that th more they do that. Th better I would want to score well. I just like to prove people wrong. :D Study Update: I've got 45.5/60 for english Paper2. I'm afraid she'll put up my silly mistake on monday! :X My birthday is in 6days :DDDDD Happy Birthday Redzuan, Jeanice and that sec5 girl :D She told me something which i'll never forget. Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 5:40 PM ♥ I'm watching Curse of the golden flower and it's a really a cruel reality. And I just managed to sit there w an empty stomach just to watch that show D: I was planning to move to th air-con room to study ! :D Gahhhhhhhh. Monday, July 28, 2008 @ 3:24 PM ♥ Ass. Ayeyeyeyeye. Th weather today is just a headache, it was alright when I was at the bus-stop but when I finally reached th bus-stop which is quite far from my block, it rained like there's no tomorrow. Kept telling myself to complete all my belated mathematics worksheet at home before doing any other business. And when I reached home, I was drenched. So, i had this very hot and long shower before I went to sleep, totally forgot about th worksheets. Dangs, I needa prepare loads of chocolates and food to encourage me to study! D: I'm feeling stress already! D: Less blogging I till I'm super prepared for my N'level. :D Happy Belated birthday KaiQin :D Hope you like the present that I'm giving you tmr ! :D Monday, July 21, 2008 @ 9:01 PM ♥ Gah :D I think I should not bury myself in the pile of worksheets given by all those teachers, especially maths as Mr.Chee went for re-service and threw about 34708754267 worksheets to th relief teachers, th worksheets just keeps coming even if we haven't complete th previous pieces! Aye, ate and out I go to th condo for gym :D Edited- Changed of plans, no more gym as I was super lazy so stayed home to watch my Corner with love, I know it's kinda expired already but I've just started my crush on 罗志祥. Luckily I didn't go cause it started raining like 5mins ago. Aye, so boring D: I haven't complete my maths workshit(S). Dangs. Saturday, July 19, 2008 @ 11:25 AM ♥ Racial Harmony :D Super enjoyable, just that we really didn't have cooperation but photo-session always managed to pulled my moods up :D Went school as normal and waited for more people to come, changed into th malay costume and went asking around if anybody know how to tie plaits . Luckily, Umirah from next door came to th rescue :D Did my plaits and I really look like a kampong girl. Decided to put two hearts there as I think It's better :D Took many many photos of many people ;D But most of th many pictures are in DavidHo's camera, aye. He's digital camera is the one I wanted to get ! Was chosen for Best dress and omgxzxz, so many heads down there! Th teachers decided to pose for like so long and Fiq and I were like ._. It was still very enjoyable, laughed like non-stop on stage. So so embarrassing ! D: Mdm Memy kept saying better not fall down cause her sari was really very long and big. P.S/ I've got a match today ! :D Pink and Black Baju Kebaya wih pink and black pumps :D Friday, July 18, 2008 @ 5:13 PM ♥ I WANT CHEONG SAMMMMMMM D: It's two days more to Racial Harmony and I don't want t stick to plain Malay Costume. But, I didn't regret buying th Malay Costume :D Dang. School was awful, cause th days are becoming smaller and smaller and that means that th moNster is coming. Wednesday, July 16, 2008 @ 4:37 PM ♥ It's been 4 years in this school, th scoldings we got together, th laughers we shared in class, th classroom that we had been in for years. We aren't going to go out empty-handed after so much happenings right? Less then 50 days to our pre-lims and I'm still playing around while th teachers try their very best to save us from this mo'N'ster. D: English standard dropping so so much, and still not studying for Mathematic! D: Everything is going downhill, e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. But my breath fogged up the glass And so I drew a new face and I laughed I guess what I be saying is there Ain't no better reason To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons It's what we aim to do Our name is our virtue Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 3:28 PM ♥ A Super summarized blog entry :D Met us with Chimeng &Hongli and trained to Newton, found Chris and Jon and went for service after we ate. After service, decided to go Cineleisure. Had so much fun on th bus that we actually missed our stop. Alighted at somewhere near Centerpoint, headed in for McFlurry as th weather was so so warm :D Bought my Mango Basics, looking for Yellow Mango :D Left and started walking all th way t cineleisure :D Met up with Chris's friend, Ming hui and i-forgot-who. Oops Th guys went jamming a while after we reached Cineleisure. Watched Hancock and chatted awhile :D Went off to Far East to look for Victor and stayed there for a real long time. Went home w/ Minghui as Chris wanted to stay there longer. D: Gaa, sorry t minghui as I 'Pang-seh' you in th train :X So not in the correct mood. 1:54 PM ♥ Decided not t go school today :D Partly is because of my dear mobile and also partly cause I was not feeling well. It's also a long day today D: So, woke up at about 9am. :D Daddy bought me out t shop! :D We went plaza Singapura to: 1) Replace my Sim Card. 2) Change my remote control. 3) Cable Teevee Billing. 4) Check out Daddy's New Contract Phone :D So, settled 1-3 and was left w/ Number 4. Daddy bought a LG model phone which is very very pretty but I don't like it :D Touch-screen but super hard to press, maybe cause I've fat little fingers :D But can anybody tell me a phone which don't really need th use of fingernails to take out th Sim-card or memory stick? I've not really very pretty long nails and it's really a tough thing for me to take out th memory card/Sim Card. D: Met up with clique at KFC :E I'm so confused with th happenings. What's happening to everything? Yea, just so messed up I guess. Ate and ayeeee, didn't study. Went home after that. Drizzled as I was walking back, stood there looking for th perfect rainbow, but there was none. I like th rainy wind blowing on my face, reminding me that life has to go on despite th rain. Reminding that there's always sunshine after rain, we should be glad that there's th stormy days that reminds us of th hardships we faced and overcome together. It just reminded me of so many things. Ayeeee. Miserable life ? Friday, July 11, 2008 @ 5:14 AM ♥ It's really a bad bad day for me. D: Met up w/clique to study and my itchy hands caused my mobile to just die. D: Ran around causeway t try to save my phone but it was dead ! Couldn't do anything about it as th only solution is t bring th phone all th way t Plaza Singapura for service. Had t continue studying, till about 7pm :D Ate at Burger King and I really regretted D: I'm penning my thoughts down at my private diary :D I think I've let out alot of emotions over here :D Wednesday, July 9, 2008 @ 4:34 PM ♥ Sometimes, i do wonder if there's fairness in th world. If friends really bail on you when you needed them most. When families and relatives don't even care about your existence, when you don't have anymore reasons to be in this place already. Who can i turn to? Who can i count on? And who can i trust again? I wonder, what would happen if friends bear grudges(?) with each other. Will there still be BFFs? Will there be letters from penpals instead of atomic bombs? Will you stil go home as it was th safest place you thought you can be? Before i sleep everynight, i would wonder what will happen tmr. What if i just died in my sleep? I have nothing to offer you, my dear friend. Will our friendship last th whole journey of life, or am i just your stepping stone to another friendship? That smile i put on my face is just a mask to cover up for everything, isn't it? And, i don't know what you said is true or what, but i know that we would never be like last time anymore. Wouldn't you wish you could press rewind, or just open your mind. You said she's not me and no one could represent me but hey, i don't think so. I stood there like a dumbass, watching you walk away. I don't wish to b a disturbance in your life, you seem happier with her and i don't want to destory the perfect friendship you have with her. Ya, maybe i was thinking too much. Maybe even too hard, i thought my life here was perfect. Friends, grades, everything. But these didn't last long, i guess she would be a better choice? I lose out in many things, sometimes i just want to lie down and forget about life. I don't want t fight for it anymore. Action speaks louder then words, all those times together are crap when you have fun with her. Even if you are together with me, ask yourself, if you are seriously happy. Dangs, my mind is so in a twril after this entry. Cufk. Im so having th arugh and th ahhhs and th throw everything around mood now. I'm so unhappy, and i don't like this feeling. Ah, random-ness. I need an hour long cold shower, followed by a thirty min hot shower. Hopefully, i'm fine after that .D: *P.S/ This is not about friends from school/outside. This is just my thoughts and ya, those urghhh and th ahhhhhs moods of my mind :D Tuesday, July 8, 2008 @ 4:27 PM ♥ I will keep wondering if everything was just meant to be. I don't like being th spare tire. D: Screw my life. Friday, July 4, 2008 @ 8:20 PM ♥ Had my National English Oral Exam today. Super nervous at first but after reading into my The Kite Runner , I was not as nervous as just now but this very very nervous boy beside me kept Singing songs and talking t himself , telling him to calm down. So, being disturb by this boy, I stop reading and started being nervous as th line is getting shorter and shorter. It's going t be my turn already! But, time was seriously not on my side. I waited for 1hour3ominutes for my turn D: And, I can't believe I fell asleep while waiting for my turn D: Today is just so not my day, was feeling so wrong in school today. Rawrrrrrrr, and I did my baking today. Might be th last time I bake til my National Exams are over. :D Th first Prelim paper is on 25July2008. Yes, I think it's not even 2weeks from today. Drats, my maths &Science&Chinese :D I think major breakdown coming just so soon :D I'm so afraid of that day, someone save me? SingFest anyone? :D Tag me if interested ! And how great can my tagboard be ? Two Tags only. Dangs. Thursday, July 3, 2008 @ 7:33 PM ♥ Aye. I can't believe Prelim's first paper is in July 28 D: And N' Level's English Oral is tomorrow. Gosh, i'm having mixed feelings ! D: I wonder if we would really do her proud or be th first class t get a no 1oo% pass in Woodlands Ring D: Jiayou People ! :D Wednesday, July 2, 2008 @ 6:39 PM ♥